It's just a crush (student/teacher)

Chapter 29*

When I stand up I feel a pain between my legs. Wtf?! Is that because of what happend last night? It's really a strange feeling and I hope that no one will notice., so  I try my best to walk like nothing hurts, but it's not so easy as you may think. School is as usual with nothing extraordinary happening. Christian just smirks at me when I enter his class. I roll my eyes at him but he continues smirking like he knows what's going on with me and know's about the uncomfortable feeling in my private parts.
After class I stay behind and say my bye to Julia,who exits the classroom smirking, leaving Christian and me alone.
"Hey." He smiles.

"Hi." I answer smiling.

"Do I not get a kiss?"

I smile and walk up to him. I lean up and connect my lips with the soft one of his. He smiles satisfied in the kiss. "Want to do something? " he asks.

"What if someone sees us?"

"We can just go to mine."

"But I have driving lesson later."

"I'll bring you there on time."

"Okay." I smile. When we leave the school together, luckily there is no one around who could have seen us. He drives to his apartment with his hand on my thigh. As we get there we cuddle up on the couch. He kisses my temple softly. "Is something wrong ?" I ask, because he seems oddly quiet today.

"No, everything's perfect. What about you?"

"Happy like never before. "
He smiles and kisses my temple again.

"Do you want to have children? " he asks after a second.
I turn around and look at him, wondering where that question comes from. We already had a short conversation about that, when we talked about me getting on the pill, but I'm wondering why is coming up with it again.

"Sure but not yet."

"Understandable, you're just 18."

"Do you want some?'

"Of course." He answers.

Since it seems like a topic he's sincere about, I want to give him the whole truth. "That might sound weird at the moment but I want to be married before I having kids and doing some traveling would be nice, too.  You know, exploring the world before having such a big responsibility."

"I always thought like that too.." He admits.

"And now ?" I ask.

"I mean I don't get younger. I'm already 30 years old."

"You're not old." I put my hand on his cheek.

"I am, but you are too young to have children. "

"Is it about our age again?" I frown, I thought we were done with that topic.

"No. I won't let you go another time. That was my biggest mistake. "

I smile at him.

"I want to give you children, but can I finish school first?" I sigh.

"Lynn, I don't want you to push into something. You can finish school and start working or we travel and I will make you my wife first. I just wanted to know what you think about it. We can have children whenever you're ready. We wait and enjoy the present. You know, sometimes when I meet people from college and see that they're already starting their families, I just feel pressured and that I'm only getting older and have people around that can't understand my decisions. But it's not about them. This is our life and we will do it in our own pace."

"I love you so much, Christian. " I crawl in his lap and kiss him.

"I love you more."

"Not possible. I'm glad we can talk honestly about everything that's going on in our minds." We smile at each other and start kissing again. My hands in his hair. His hands around my waist. We make out till my phone disturbs us. I answer without looking at the caller ID.