It's just a crush (student/teacher)

Chapter 18

Soon everyone is gone. Dad comes back from the front door where he said goodbye to Christian, who was the last to leave.

"Christian invited us for his birthday."

"When?" asks mom.

"Next Saturday."

"I wanted to go to the movies with Julia that day."

"You have to cancel that." Dad says.

"Why do I have to come with you? He's a friend of yours not mine."

"Because I want us to go as a family."

"But he's my teacher. That's weird."

"No buts. You come with us."

Ugh. I really don't want to be at his place. The last time I've been there was when we broke up. I really hope I won't start crying when we're there. That would be awkward. Well, even if I won't cry that evening will be awkward. I hoped that the "he's my teacher" argument would work but my dad doesn't care.

School days are passing by with not much happening. Living the normal teenager life filled with school, homework and seeing Julia after school.

Right now, I'm sitting in my English class. In 5 minutes I can finally go home. When the bell rings and I pack my stuff, Christian says: "Lynn please stay behind." I roll my eyes.

"Should I wait?" Julia asks.

"No, leave. See you tomorrow. "

I hug her and when everyone left, he comes over and sits down on the chair across from me. I sit back down on my chair.

"I want to talk to you." He says.

"About?"

"Us."

"Ugh. Really? What is there more to talk about? You don't want me and I have to get over it. End of the story. "

"It's not the end. I want you but you know it's illegal. "

"How often do I have to say that I don't care. Of course I don't want you to loose your job, but I hate the feeling of being without you. " In the end I barley whisper.

"I think we should continue that conversation at my home."

I just nod.

We leave his classroom. Since it was the last lesson almost everyone is gone. We get in his car and he drives to his apartment. While driving no one says a word and it's kind of uncomfortable.

When we are at his, we sit down in the living room.

"I love you. I meant that. I really love you. But it's not only the fact that you're my student. Look I'm turning 30 on Saturday and your 17. There are days when I feel like I am a perv, but when I'm with you none of this counts. And I didn't plan to broke up with you but I was scared. Scared of loosing my job. Scared of getting caught by your parents. Scared of ... I don't know. But what I want to say is that I love you and I think I'm not afraid anymore. I want to be with you, really. "

I have tears in my eyes. He's so cute.

"I'm turning 18 next month. "

He hugs me. His touch feels so good.

"I missed you." I say.

"I missed you, too. I'm sorry for leaving you. "

I don't say anything. I just enjoy his hug.

After a while I ask: "Are we back together?"

"If you want to." He says.

"I do." He smiles.