It's just a crush (student/teacher)

Chapter 6*

I smile when his soft lips leave mine. That was great. I can't believe this actually happened, but when I open my eyes he looks confused. I didn't expect that look on his face at all.

"Whats wrong?" I ask.

"I shouldn't have done this."

"What?!"Now, I am confused.

"That was a mistake." Ouch, that hurts.

"Are you kidding me? You just said you have a crush on me and I admitted the same. You actually made me admit it and now everything was a mistake?!" I can't believe what he is saying, I start to get angry.

"I'm sorry, Lynn. You're my student. We can't do this."

"Right, I'm your student and the daughter of one of your friends. Forget about that.  I'm just a child anyway."

I get out of his arms and want to leave when he grabs me by my wrist.

"Get off me." I scream.

"Lynn, wait."

"No. Let go of me." I shake his hand off and leave to find Mia. Tears are streaming out of my eyes. No, not now... I can't control myself.

"Omg, Lynn. What happend? " Mia hugs me.

"He's an asshole."

"Come on, we get ready for bed. Go upstairs. I'll tell your parents goodnight. "

"Thanks Mia." I smile slightly.

"No problem, sweetie."

I go upstairs, quickly change and remove my make up. When Mia comes upstairs she gets ready for bed too. We lay together in my bed and I tell her what happened earlier with Christian. By now I calmed down a little bit. I knew that I should have stayed away from him. He's just hurting me. The situation is hopeless anyway. I really need to get over him and forget what happend tonight. What a start in the new year.

"You're right. He acts like an asshole. I thought he was cute. "

"I thought so too."

"You'll get over him or he realizes his mistake and apologies to you."

"We'll see. Now I definitely don't want to see him again."

"But school is starting in a few days." Mia whispers.

"I know.. "

"Let's talk about something else."

"Right. Tell me all what's new with you! Is there a boy in your life?" I ask with a smile on my face.

"Well, yes to be honest."

"Really? Who? Do I know him?"

"Yeah, he was at my birthday party. Jason. Remember? "

"Oh yes. He's handsome."

"He is and so kind. He asked me for a date."

"I'm so happy for you." I really am happy for her. Mia is great and if I remember correctly so is this Jason guy. Mia deserves all the best.

*

Holidays are sadly over and today is the first day back to school. I'm going to see Christian again for the first time since the kiss and I don't know how he or I will act. I neither want to look hurt nor like life-is-great-without-you-I-don't-need-you because it's definitely not like that. I miss him (although I'm not sure how this is possible) and I want to be with him, but he hurt me. I just don't want to seem like a heartbroken teenager either.

I meet Julia in the hall and we head to our first lesson. The school day went by and now is my last lesson: English.

I enter the classroom and see him sitting at his desk. When Julia and I pass him, she greets him with a nice "Hello". He looks up and answers "Hello girls". My eyes are glued to the ground while I walk to my table, because I can't find strength in me to face him, but I do feel his eyes on me. I try not to look at him during his class and I didn't even listen. There are too many other things on my mind.

When Julia and I want to leave the classroom, he says: "Lynn, please stay behind. I want to talk to you." Oh no. Julia looks at me with a big question mark on her face. "Get on the bus, you don't have to wait for me."

"Alright. See ya tomorrow. " she hugs me and leaves. By that time everybody else left too. So there are just him and me in one room. A situation I wanted to avoid.