♡︎ Frankie ♡︎
"Momma p'ay wif me" Billie begs sitting beside me on the couch as I work.
"In a few minutes darling, I'm still working" I peck her cheek.
"Otay" I see her frown from the corner of my eye, I can't just let her be sad now can I?
I finish typing and close my computer, "okay angel I can play with you now" I beam.
"Yay!!!" Billie cheers. "Otay momma we p'ay tea party" she smiles.
"Okay let's set up on the floor so our friends can join us" I help Billie place all her stuffies on the floor, her collection has grown quite a bit.
Every time we leave the house I get her at least 2 new stuffies. I'm not sure of all their names just yet but I will learn eventually. I also brought her a tea set even though she had a tantrum when I told her she couldn't have it for not behaving in the store when we had first arrived. But it's so hard to say no to that face of hers. She really has my heart.
"Momma you sit next to Beawy' and Macy" Billie orders.
"Um who is Beary and Macy, honey?" I smile nervously.
"Silly mommy" she stands up and guides me to where she wants me to sit, "dere' say hi mommy."
"Hi, Mr. Beary and Ms. Macy" I greet the stuffed bear with a top hat and bow tie sewn to it and the stuffed alligator with a purple bow on its tail.
Billie falls into a fit of giggles, "no Mr. Beawy an' Ms. Macy jus Beawy n Macy."
"Oh okay I'm sorry baby" I giggle.
Billie looks between myself and her, gasping loudly, "I be back momma I fowgot somefing!"
She races to the bedroom, I hear some ruckus and a few seconds later Billie comes back with two scarves and two hats. She waddles over to me placing the scarf around my neck and rest the hat on my head before doing the same to herself.
"Tada!" She smiles brightly showing me her new look, "now we dress for tea party!"
"You look so beautiful, bug!" I coo, clapping as she poses.
"Tank you, you too momma" she blushes.
"Thank you love bug" I smile warmly.
Billie and I have a fun time playing tea party, she is so adorable when she's pretending. She makes my heart swell, I love her so much.
.. I love her..
****
Some time after our game Billie ended up falling asleep, I haven't been able to do anything but think about Billie. I haven't known her for long but she means so much to me.
"Frankie" a soft voice calls out from beside me, startling me.
"I didn't even feel you move" I chuckle humorlessly.
Billie is sat up with an extreme case of bed head, regardless she looks adorable.
"You okay, darling?" I tuck her hair behind her ears.
"Can I talk to you about something?" She asks shyly, her voice hushed and her eyes focused on everything but me.
"Of course, you can talk to me about anything."
"Um.. well remember when I told you about how I feel a-about you I mean?" She mutters.
"Mhm" I hum feeling my heart begin to race.
"D-do you l-like me.. i-in that way?" She whispers so quietly if I hadn't been paying close attention I wouldn't have understood her.
I inhale sharply, how do I tell her how I feel without scaring her by telling her I love her? Gibberish spews from my mouth as I try to get my thoughts together, "I-.. well.. you-"
Billie's sparkly blue eyes meet mine, her lips parted ever so slightly starting to form a frown. Dammit.
"I-it's okay" is all she says before pushing herself off the bed.
"Billie I-" the bedroom door slams shut before I get to finish speaking.
"Great job Frankie" I curse myself for being so stupid.
I sit alone in bed, deciding that maybe Billie needs some time alone and quite frankly so do I, contemplating how I should address my feelings for her without sounding crazy. Maybe I should talk to someone.
I'm frantic searching for my phone, when I find it I call the first person who comes to mind. The phone rings a few times before they pick up.
"Hello?" She speaks.
"Hey Jordan" I sigh.
"Why do you sound so stressed? You okay? I haven't heard from you since you kicked mom out of your house" she chuckles.
"Yeah I'm sorry I've been really occupied with work and Billie."
"Speaking of Billie, how is that cutie? And when can I come visit? I would love to see her again.. and you of course."
"Fuck you" I chuckle, "but seriously you can come over anytime I'm sure she's love to be around you more than me especially right now."
"Why what happened?" She sounds concerned now.
"Well a few weeks ago Billie confessed that she likes me but she was little and I didn't wanna discuss feelings with a child so I held off. But then just a few minutes ago she asked me how I felt and I hesitated.."
"You what? Frankie if I was in your face I'd slap it. Is she okay? How could you-"
"Damn relax, Jay. I like her too. A lot actually- I think I love her but I didn't know how to say it. I don't wanna freak her out. The last person she cared about left her in a parking lot for god's sake" I groan.
"Oh no that poor baby. Also sorry for threatening to slap you, where is she now?"
"In the living room, she stormed about before I could figure out what to say. What should I say? I don't want her to be upset for too long. She might slip before we get to really talk about this."
"Just be honest with her, Frankie. You have to tell her something especially now that she's already assumed the worst and stormed out."
"I just don't wanna scare her" I frown.
"You've got this, just talk calmly and don't sound uncertain" she explains.
I get out of the bed to go peek into the living to see how Billie is.
"Alright I-"
I stop myself from speaking, Billie isn't in the living room. "Hold on one sec, Jay."
"Billie?" I call out heading for the bathroom.
No Billie.
My heart drops into my stomach, suddenly I can't breathe.
"Billie?!" I shout out.
"Frankie? Frankie what's going on?!" I hear Jordan shouting.
Putting the phone back to my ear I try to speak, "sh-she's gone."
"What?!" She frantic now.
"Billie's gone" a single tear falls down my face.
