21. Bitter

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by MaddieMeyer1

by MaddieMeyer1

Liz -

there are times where I'm mad I am mad at the world for everything that has happened I am mad at the world for everything that has happened and I will times where I will be strong and come out and face the world like a big person I will hide in my room and feel tiny and shellshocked I am just really overwhelmed with the fact I am going to lose Chris I know it's only a matter of time before I lose him so now I'm gonna put on my smile too I'm gonna keep on advocating keep the kids like me and you know letting idle state because I think it's important I think everybody should have their personal or if they don't wanna be in elation ship that's fine too but I think the ones that did renovations

I think they should be able to you know go off with their people and not have to worry about losing your job or what others might think I think that if we could all be respectful to one another we wouldn't have these issues and I think a lot of people would be more understanding and caring and compassionate but I think right now everybody's just lonely and mad and I just you know misunderstood like everybody's feelings are misunderstood and miss represented so it really takes a toll on everybody I just wish that we could all be nice to each other and get along but I know for some people that's really hard to do and I'm just hoping that other people will look at my story and maybe take something and learn from it but who knows I'm always hopeful.

Chris -

feeling blue again I see my love please don't cry why can't we focus on the moment wait I know that you're always present in the moment that's what I like about you I like that you're always focused in the moment and you know always wanting to know what other people are self and I think that but I think he really needs to go off and do a few things to take your mind off you San was just telling me today that he wanted to go to Hawaii with me for two days and then you can come back you know if you get there and decide that you want to turn back around you you have the ability to do so because you have a private jet but

I really think you should go somewhere and get your head off of everything it really bothers me that you're really stressed out and upset and feel uncomfortable it's really bothering me but I understand if you don't want to do anything I was thinking maybe next week we could have a little getaway together and relax.

Liz -

I like that we could do a staycation I could go to the store and get fake Hawaiian decorations or I can get fake Disney decorations and we can sit on the couch and do nothing right now I just wanna hold you in my arms and like we can get on a plane when you're better not right now I don't want any excess pressure on your heart you can get sick right now just let me hold you.

Chris -
The one thing I loved about Liz was her compassion for others she always put others of course self but with me she really outdid herself how did I ever get so lucky.