35. Late night thoughs

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by MaddieMeyer1

by MaddieMeyer1

Liz - oh
Chris darling I'll always love you please don't live me what about our future and what having children and growing old together you can't go like this my little Angel please don't go .
Changbin -
I'll take care of Liz like my life depends on it but what about the boys I can't lead them myself and I can't bear losing you
Chris -
Liz my darling your so special and I love you so much I'm sad we won't get to live happily ever after but I love you so much till my heart stops beating even when I'm gone I'll be watching over you oh no there coming there coming . Liz - Chris honey who's coming nurse ! Oh no no my babies going home to to angels
Chris
- I love so much my little Joey princess forever and always

Liz -
no no oh my god
why don't go Chris don't go I can't live without you yeah I have San but it's not the same as you I'll miss your warmth and running my fingers through your hair Baby, why'd you leave me, why'd you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know

I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance,
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now,

This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream
It has to be
Jackie -
Liz I'm so sorry he's gone he went painlessly and he said he loved you most people don't get that opportunity to do so I know you lost Felix and Maddie 4 weeks ago so it's added to your stress but there's resources out their to help you in the long run I promise it'll be okay Who are you you have a lot of support as well and if you need anything there's a hospice crisis grief line you could call anyway I gotta go and I'm taking his body with me if you need anything call me OK it'll all be all right you just you really need a lot of help.

Liz -
as April
Shakes out her rain drenched hair,
Tho you should lean above me broken hearted, may is arriving early tomorrow morning at dust till dawn

I shall not care.
For I shall have peace.
As leafey trees are peaceful
When rain bends down the bough.
And I shall be more silent and cold hearted
Than you are now I have a feeling life isn't meant to be lived alone I know others will say I'm a coward for doing this I know others will judge me but I can't live without him now it's a good time to let the Stacy know that I married me and chan's room married for five beautiful years until Cardiovascular systemic ventricular tachycardia failure tore us apart from each other in the most horrific way yes I know I have friends who love me but it's not the same as a husband and parter in crime Chris loved me so much he was still warm and cold but had body heat still I laid my head on him one last time I kissed him genuinely and than I tried to quickly walk away but I could suddenly a horrific pain in my chest paralyzed me with fear but joy in a way I was dying of grief before I could move anymore I big bright light came down and a pair of hands that I loved the most stretched out and pulled me in Chanie

Chris -
hello my darling I'm sad you didn't want to stay and carry my legacy but at least we're Reunited and free from everything come on my love our stir way to heaven is waiting for us .
Liz -I'm coming baby

San - OH MY GOD !

Changbin - no no we lost Felix Maddie Chris and Liz
I.N-please tell me I'm dreaming please tell me this was a terrible terrible dream and that I'm waking up soon

Seungmin - I don't believe this I mean this is unbelievable

Lee know - Liz oh my god no
Han - kairn I'm so sorry I love you
Kairn -both of my friends are dead this is unbelievable I lost probably some of the most special people in my life grateful I still have Han and Peter but those are my friends like we've gone through so much together and now she is gone.
JYP -i'm sorry everyone I failed you I should've not have poisoned you girls I am sorry I don't know if you'll ever be able to forgive me but from now on

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I will let you all date freely and hopefully tragedies like this you know we seen what happened to Maddie in Felix at their movie about being in love and now Liz and Chris due to health issues I'm a horrible person and I'll have to live with it forever.
Liz -I feel terrible for leaving them Chris but I couldn't be without you I couldn't be all and now San is crying

Chris -you're safe with me now my love and I will always be here for you
Maddie - Liz ?! How do you get up here how do you get up here so quickly oh my gosh Chris I didn't realize you passed on

Felix -
I missed you hyung I missed you a lot I'm happy we're all together but I hope everyone else can carry on fine

Chris - they will with time and I hope they don't blame himself for the tragedy because you guys got poisoned and you know I had a heart condition you know things that could've been prevented but due to the unfairness of life they just happened but I'm sure they will carry on strong for us and keep our legacy alive come on my love .

Liz-
before going up to heaven permanently I gaze down at all my friends that were still on earth below and I smiled softly and realize they were going to be OK it was just have a lot of therapy and a lot of things to work out but I'm grateful for my stand on earth but there's nowhere I'd rather be than with my husband and that's that that was my love story.