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"Have you ever wondered what it would be like to fall in love with someone? Like genuinely love someone and have them love you." Shay looked up from her phone at her friend, who sat across from her.
"Mak, what are you going on about?" Makayla then put down her phone and looked over at the burgundy haired female.
"We read all these epic love stories, watch all these movies dedicated to love, listen to countless love songs, but at the end of the day you can't tell me that you don't wonder what it feels like to fall in love. You of all people should know what I'm talking about." Shay sighed deeply, before getting up and walking into the kitchen.
"I do wonder that, but wondering and having the courage to actually talk to someone are two different things." Makayla smiled and shook her head, before joining her friend in the kitchen.
"I think one day, you're going to meet someone who you will actually feel comfortable with. Mark my words." She said with a mischievous grin. Shay rolled her eyes as she opened her drink.
"Me finding someone I'm comfortable with is equivalent to you dating someone. Not going to happen." Makayla then pretended to be hurt as she wrapped her arms around her stomach.
"That was a low blow dude." She spoke as she fell to her feet in a dramatic notion. Shay then shook her head as she made her way back to the living room. "Back to the topic, I think we just haven't found the right people yet." The burgundy haired female scoffed at her words, before taking a sip of her drink and placing it on the coffee table in front of her.
"Don't tell me that you believe in that 'there's someone for everyone' bullshit, Mak."
"Of course I do. You used to, before..." Makayla then made her way into the living-room. She then looked over at Shay with a guilty look, before changing the subject. "My point is. You used to believe in love. So why did that have to change?" Shay looked over at her black haired friend. Her multicolored eyes began to gloss over as she remembered the painful memories that she tried to keep buried deep in her heart.
"I'm not having this discussion, Mak." She then got up to leave, but Makayla stood in her way.
"Shay, you need to talk to someone. It's been a year. It's unhealthy to keep it in." Shay then pushed passed her, before grabbing her keys and making her way out the door. The door slammed shut on her way out, and by the time she got to her car she had tears rolling down her face.
It had been 6 years since she lost her mother, and then a year ago on the 5 year anniversary she was raped by her boyfriend. After that Shay started to shut everyone, even Mak and Sam. Who are her two closest friends. After that she stopped believing that anyone could love her. She already had to deal with having depression and anxiety, but after the incident it just amplified it. Now it's harder for her to talk to people she doesn't know, and it caused her to swear off dating all together. She stopped believing that she was meant to find love, because all she had been dealt thus far was pain.
For now she is alone crying her eyes out in her car, but at the end of that summer her life would begin to change for the better.

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