You Got Me

Next Level

Matt sighed softly as he stared at his phone. He and Shay had been texting for about a month, but a part of him wanted to make a bold move and call her. He wanted to hear her voice and hear her laugh. But his anxiety wouldn't allow him to do so without asking her first. 

Shay💙

What are you thinking about? It's taking you awhile to reply. 

Matt 💜
I have to ask you something. 

Shay💙
What's up? 

Matt took a deep breath. Shay couldn't even see him, but he was sweating bullets. He was so nervous that he felt his palms grow sweaty. Why is it so hard to just text her? He's not even talking to her; they are just texting but yet he still finds it hard to say what he wants. 

Matt 💜

We've been texting for a while now, and I was hoping we could take it to the next level.

Shay💙
What would the next level be?

Matt couldn't help but smile to himself, regardless of the fact that his heart was racing. If he had been paying more attention to it, then he'd probably be more concerned. But in this moment, all he could think about was telling Shay just how bad he wanted to hear her voice. 

Matt 💜
I was hoping I could call you. I'd really like to hear your voice for the first time. If you're comfortable with it that is? 

Matt is always afraid of pressuring Shay into doing things. He wants her to be comfortable with him, especially given they share a common issue. He never wants her to be afraid to talk to him or to be afraid to make her own choices. He doesn't know much about Shay, but he can tell that she's been hurt before. Because of that, Matt aims to be different. He wants to be someone she can confide in and be comfortable around. He wants to be there for her, despite the fact that he doesn't really know her. 

Shay💙
Ok. We can call. 

Matt could have sworn that his heart just skipped a beat. 

Matt 💜

Are you sure? We don't have to if you aren't ready. 

Shay💙
Matt, its ok. I want to.

Matt found himself shaking. He was nervous and excited at the same time. This was the moment he had been waiting for and he's terrified for it. Even as his finger hovers over the button, he contemplates calling her. What if she hates his voice? What if she changes her mind? So many what if's run through his head, and before he can process anymore his phone rings. Shay decided to call him instead. He probably made her nervous taking so long, so he quickly answered, trying not to delay it anymore. 

"Thank god you answered. If you hadn't then I'd probably have gotten more anxious than I am right now." Her voice was so soft, and nice to listen to. Matt smiled to himself, before realizing he hadn't said anything yet. 

"Sorry about that. I was going to call you. My nerves just got the best of me this time." He then lets out a nervous laugh as he rubs the back of his neck subconsciously. 

"I was nervous too, but I was more worried that you changed your mind." Matt could hear her becoming insecure. 

"I didn't. I'm glad you called. I really like your voice." 

"Really?" 

"Really." A small blush formed on Matt's cheeks as the smile remained glued to his face. In this moment he's so thankful that Mak gave him Shay's number. 

"I really like your voice too. It's calming." She spoke, before letting out a nervous laugh. 

"So is yours." Matt could picture her smiling in his head. His opinion remained the same. Regardless of what she looks like in real life, she'll be beautiful because she has such a beautiful personality. 

"I'm glad that you received my number Matt. I like having you in my life, even if it is conversations over the phone." Matt felt a warm feeling in his chest. It was a feeling he would welcome with open arms. 

"I'm glad that I have you in my life too. I know there's still a lot to learn about each other, but I really like you, Shay." Matt sighed to himself softly. He was afraid that he had messed the whole thing up, and that she wasn't ready to hear that yet. 

"I really like you too, Matt." All his doubts were washed away by her words. He could relax and just talk to her, which is all he's ever wanted with anyone. 

"I'm glad we're on the same page."