Sufi | book 3

Authors note

To me writing is like having a conversation to me alone about my thoughts and kind of process my thoughts and emotions and everything else in between and trying to think twice before I speak or I act. Sometimes I write out of passion and anger sometimes I write because it's important to say I have to think twice before I act and speak as my mom used to say the good part of my mom used to say it's important to think twice before you speak it's important to think twice before you act before you do something stupid in public or to your friends to think about that. I don't believe in having disorganized thoughts I'm not OCD I just believe in not having one disorganized thoughts I just think that if you have disorganized thoughts you're going to do something more idiotic with your time and money or whatever else goes on in life and it'll turn into a negative instead of a positive so to me writing is to help me become a better person to be a be human being that's decent and caring and decent also I write to tell my stories or story in this case and three books this is why I want to be in the water usage to tell my story in three parts Sufi one which is just plain Sufi Sufi to book 2 and book 3 which is this one right now and I'd rather tell my story and say it as is because it said on the warranties they said you have a story to tell and yes I have a whale of a tale the tale and that is what it is for me. I don't go around keeping things bottled up I create and express what I have to say through writing and art or tattoos and piercings piercings coming up later but anyway tattoos and piercings are writing music rap poetry that's how I deal with my emotions and stuff so why do I want to go in the wadis because it's important for me to say what my story is it's important to say what it is about because it's something that you need to learn not in a bad way but to learn so you don't have to learn at the tough way through any war or some kind a bad thing that might happen so let's just learn this lesson about treating other people kindly and not being overly whatever to other people because it's just gonna cause wars and terrorism as I said I'm gonna tell you this right goddamn now is it PTSD is caused by ignorance on all kinds of levels it could be as an ignorant as not checking somebody's profile on Facebook and then you traumatize your family or it could be as bad as in ignorance of religion and you end up killing people because you think that religion is allowing killing one of the two that's what it is. Anyway I just thought I right to say what needs to be said whether it be about mental health on warren peace or something is this is what is near me sad. Or that some people are awesome things are not as shiny as gold and that seems it simmer not always cold I remember reading this on my friends Facebook profile not all Susan Savon shine are gold and that is the truth. One miles in Golden Garden turn into a big fat red flag and current Andrew something that's going to be horrible and god-awful something that might not shimmer could be gold to begin with if you never know. One man's bad thing can be another man's good thing it depends on how bad the situation is to be either learning a new lesson through the other person is mistake or learning from your mistakes either way turn garbage in the gold kind of thing but then again I also believe they're not all things that Shimron are gold and valuable somethings it seem like you're going to be good turn out to be the worst thing on the planet and that is the size why I have to write to Warren things that's why I right creepy pastor to say that things don't always turn out right. I also have had a Creepypasta obsession for a long time and I've always been interested in creepypasta since I was four years old up till now. It was just one siren head came out of the picture not just on the Internet but in popular fiction as well urban Meyer said he interest me end of the world of urban myths whether they be real or online urban myths so I end up deciding I'm going to go worried about Creepypasta whenever I'm down and out. That's why I do what I do with creepypasta and I do not include people with problems because that's just stupid to deal with and make people with problems look like idiots or Halloween decorations I say but instead you have to treat other people kindly and if you have someone that you don't like it or they really hate you and you're your enemies write a Creepypasta about them and see what happens you might become famous that's why I do that I've written or started to write paper boats which is about my ex brat somebody or another noticed that my spellcheck said brat instead of brat because he is a brat. And that's basically the size of everything is that you're either going to be with somebody or you're going to be well I'm gonna tell you the thing about being human is that you're not supposed to be perfect but then again you're not supposed to be a horrible person at all to be human is to have flaws and maybe even profound flaws but you have to be a decent person to begin with to deal with these flaws if you're not going to be a decent person then these laws will make or break you in ways that will horrify you. To be human is to deal with useless and to be a decent human being. I don't think that being human is to be perfect we like everyone else or definition or anything of that matter this is kind of bull crap. Instead trying to be human is trying to be a decent person trying to be human and only human is to be imperfect and deeply flawed and profound adapted. Do I believe that you have to be like Rain Man to be happy no do you have to be like me to be sad no but you just have to be feeling certain emotions at certain times they don't have to be at the appropriate time the emotions. Or the behaviour sometimes I just creeped out a nowhere but that's what being human and we will be sings prepare a nowhere and a intrude or minds but we can handle them decently times instead of that with if we cannot handle our problems that's what is it is the only thing that is going to separate us from the animals the animals are completely perfect we are flawed. And we are unique that is what separates us from the animal kingdom from the humans besides that I don't believe in going around trashing other people because they have disabilities are trashing other people because they have a mental illness or something like that unless a mental wellness or mental disability or disability happen to be psychopathy or sociopaths he then I go nuts. That is my only weakness is that these people who are psychopaths say they're either disabled or they're traumatized and it just drives me insane it's like yes we're supposed to be in here we're not supposed be perfect but then again we're not supposed to be crazy and act like an animal either. However I said our disabilities and mental illnesses are what help us separate us from the animals we have a bigger brain than a dog or a cat or a champ or whatever we're just a little bit more superior in the animal kingdom because we are inferior to each other inferior and I don't mean that in a bad way I mean we are completely floored and unique and supposed to be treated with the Locarno said we are expected because we are all inferior in someway or superior in one way or were crazy and one way as I'm going to say there is Tim Burton said one man's reality can be another man is crazy think I may have got that "ride with us beside the point that's why I decide that my reality is the truth my truth that is it may be the truth out of people as well but it is also the truth for me it depends on how you perceive things on life and how you perceive things with other people do you want to be a pain in the ass and start annoying other people do you want to be a jack ass and act like an animal or throw a temper tantrum no but if you cannot help it I understand because it is a flaw that we all have but if we don't have a flaw then we're no different from the animals because your brain is no bigger or smaller. What made our brains bigger was the fact that we started cooking meat and other things and was able to process it a lot easier therefore our brains grew bigger that is one Siri the other Siri is that we start eating cooked meat and just cooked meat and start it only with the idea of being kind to each other and then to be more emotional and stuff either way cooking has something to do with it as much as I can't stand to cook and clean cleaning is not too bad but cooking is a traumatic event for me but it hasn't been a traumatic event for the human race it has perpetuated the human race to be who we are in the first place and then I'll just tell you there's only one goddamn race in the human race and that is humans I don't believe that there's this thing about you have to be superior than someone reactor in theory or just someone you can have flaws and guess give me profoundly flawed profoundly gifted it doesn't matter you're still human. I don't talk to people who are "normal I talk to people who have disabilities and mental illnesses because they're the ones that are they show that they actually have a working brain. Other than that I don't really talk to very many people outside of the group home because it's like oh your brain is so invisible. Well as I said it was cooking that started I was to have our flowers in perfections and imperfections as well through cooking only and I was still cooking meat and that's when we started developing emotions memory thoughts caring about people and other stuff like that that's why it started it always cooking meat so our party didn't have to work as hard and our brain certain grow a lot more that was one Siri. I don't know what the other theories are but that's why were what we are I thing in the way of things because we started to cook with fire and burn off the harmful bacteria that the body would have to work harder to survive from instead we cook and we end up growing our brains we develop emotions thoughts memories experiences happiness and sadness and stuff like that that make us who we are and we than ultimately develop personalities of our own and our own philosophies of our own and our own whatever's. If it were not for me and cooking I would not be talking to you right now in writing I will be telling you that this to garbled up whatever chimpanzee talk because we wouldn't have climb down the trees. So to be Florida is to be evolved to be disabled is to be able I think that's what I think to be human you have to have your problems and have your flaws and curiosities that's what it is about. It was my mother a perfect woman she was a perfect mother to an accident until a very deeply flawed person came into her life but she was still flawed but she was a perfect mother. We cannot feed on each other's weaknesses we have to feed on each other's Strank's and help us build each other up instead of going around tearing each other down and being nasty and mean and horrible try to be positive and try to see the positivity and I'm not talking about a positive Covid test I mean positive thoughts positive attitude positive just trying to be a decent person that's what I think I don't believe in going around three other people and shit because I am feel like shit or because they're different from me that's celebrate/celebrate our differences and ours celebrate our abilities and disabilities because they're all abilities in someway and even at that age even though this book these past two books were a little on the negative side they were trying to show or teach you that life is not always perfect you're not always perfect and that things aren't supposed to turn out the way you want to add sometimes you can't have your own way and sometimes that's what being human is too I probably have had more disappointments and I had birthdays with many people. But that's beside the point I decide I move on from it outdoors and onwards as my friend Helen said I was supposed to tell you the story about a real Doodoo of a thing I did how can the notes for the. To tell you the stupidity of myself that you across me my life that was not a suicide attempt or attempt to hurt myself OK here it goes: