Sufi | book 3

Special fx make up

Special fx Halloween make up is what made me see the beauty in me again.  What happened was that did some bloody make up with fake blood for modeling and I wanted right then and there kiss my self in the mirror.   You're probably thing I am insane but to me halloween is 365 days a year not just one, not one I think....it's a lifestyle a mindset.  Halloween that is and   I take my horror and Halloween seriously. The same with creepy pasta. 
Was my father always a drinker and am asshole......no.  Aside from teaching me about science and nature I was also taught to trick or treat, wear special effects make up at an early age and have had an interest in Halloween for quiet some time.   When I was doing gory picture and the end result and the hots back for m self.    Hours later I kissed My self in the mirror Passionately.
I never had intense feeling for anyone else but my self.  It got to the point the next day thatI was. Looking sterling Silver engravable wedding rings to buy for me and when I get it I will be marrying my self in my apartment.  I am going to have a a picture of me put in it.

Well it will be another week before I can order it but the week is flying by quick.....tomorrow it will be wensday. So that's good.
When I marry my self I am and going to use the fake blood special effects make up when I have my own wedding. I want this to be special for me. I became Facebook offical with my self since the 24th July. I am that means something. That I took my self of the dating scene and will be living for once a decent life. Instead of having to marry and because at the mercy of some nitwit.
A few other things you may want to know it's also media sites because his friends are Mies FaceTime mom just called me as in mind and I directions spacers in my space. It's supposed to be a play on words anyways and I created it. And I am trying to organize it and trying to get it to grow but it's very hard when people don't wanna blow your side so they're very annoying I go one person and two of me in there think I have did but but I don't. Yes psychiatric and you are a romantic community and drives me completely bonkers and it drives me wild animals song not in a good way like me but instead it's just very painful annoying songs that psychology your psychiatry has stereotype so many people is ridiculous anyway in there in the normal or your out of society kind of thing and locked up away either way I don't like it it drives me nuts. I think the psychiatrist world of pilot and bullshit it can help you for some things but other times it's just for shit none the last because it is horrible to deal with the stereotypes that they give to people and practically see every mantle illness or disability report and to a horror movie. What's your friend doing because people with man disability in mental illness or not Halloween daiquisions or scary things to be feared or just trying to be human this is the same thing with the auto man to community is just the way your wire forget the rest of the world if they're going to hate on you or stereotype you can break them mold very easily. What are you responsible sure about the mental health gosh is that I think goth people are people that are in nursing and horrible and that is not true just because a few people sauna perfume cute part of the whole school in Columbine doesn't mean that all girls are the worst thing that on the earth. Or that it's Marilyn Manson's fault. I am listening to his music and I have no clums with his lyrics to make me a little questionable sometimes but that's what's special about him he knows what I go through because he goes to the same thing trying to freaking fit and and stuff that just drives me completely baddie the same thing with Limp Bizkit and the insane clown posse that's why I've been down with these guys and six years old and I've never once lay a finger on someone unless they tried to tagonize me in some kind of we need other than that I'm a very peaceloving goth and I goth i am. So I don't decide to go with the stereotype that goth are people who are mentally ill or mentally unstable or rather violent that's not true I want to golf make up and I wear goth clothes and I'm a Lolita and I do what I want to do. How are you only make up tutorial that I took voice of goth tutorial on my trip and that was set me off I make up right left in the sun or not receive special effects Halloween make up what is this make up in general. Because I want to work a certain way not like Britney Spears notifying by to look away I odd to look. I don't believe in goth or people that should be feared because it is so hard for me also called psychiatry I think it's really horrible. The goths have any put on the way side and put behind the 8 ball. I have know plenty of decent people who happens to be goth. These people are not as bad they're just dressed differently and listen to different music they're not as bad as the psychiatric world would put it as. It's crazy how bun the doctor's can make someone look like a bunch of fools just fire one label insane or something because of a couple of bad apples and it drives me nuts and I'll tell you why I cannot stand doctors to begin with They have Drive me Wilder than anything else in my life punch one in the face And there is a beautiful thing I wanna do for Dr. than you don't wanna know what the aggressive thing I wanna do the doctors are anyway so don't even bother. What I've dealt with is that I've been called egg mountain coon derogatory term for a Himalayan person because I had stretchers in my ears or your expanders for gauges in my ears wanna go to the doctors don't like that and I think that's an indication that you're not white you're not that I am not white to begin with, I am Himalayan, so I do the expanders. But I don't believe that doctors have to check on someone's lungs because of a race or a hurricane that is just below the belt and I was doing harm in my opinion. Instead of doing harm is not what you wanna do it through a doctor or medical professional I find this is extreme below the belt. I am going to tell you what I when through with doctor other then being called a fucking coolie. So all the time Himalayan that's what I'm gonna be for the rest of my life I love you don't like it you can go and stay at home kind of thing just like with Covid I have nothing nice to say are you racist you say the hell home. Don't spread your shit all over the place I think. I wish it was a face mask for vaccine for racism and hatred. But there isn't. and it boils my blood.