The Boy Next Door

10.

I skip school the next day no matter how much I try to do everything as usual today. I don't feel like getting up, or even scrolling through my phone. I just don't have motivation for anything.

I see my phone screen light up every so often with notifications and messages. I ignore them and stay frozen in my bed, not doing anything.

I don't deserve to be doing this, I'm the one who broke me and Heeseung's friendship, but why does it hurt so much?

My throat is as dry as sawdust due to the fact I haven't eaten or drank since lunch yesterday. But I can't get myself out of bed to do normal things.

"Park Chaewon! Open this door this instant!!" I hear my dad scream from the other side. I try to say something back but nothing comes out probably due to the fact my throat is dried up.

Okay, Chaewon move your legs. Okay good, now move your hand to the lock. Okay good good, unlock it. I say to myself so I can even function properly.

My parents storm into my room as I slowly walk to my bed again, just to zone out again.

"Chaewon! What happened??" my mom asks while caressing my hand.

"Nothing." I say emptily.

"I know it's nothing. The Park Chaewon I know would never lock herself in her room to be alone." my dad adds.

"Fine. Me and Heeseung had a small fight." I say so they don't worry.

"Your such a bad liar, Chaewon. Tell us what actually happened. I know Heeseung wasn't sobbing this morning for a little fight." my mom says calmly.

"H-He was crying?" I ask while the tears stream down my face again due to it.

"Yes. He could barely even walk straight for heaven's sake." she says while rubbing her forehead.

"I hurt him. I hurt him a lot. Minwoo told me to stop having guy friends so I tr-tried to end it. But it hurts mom." I say while sobbing in her warm embrace.

"Oh baby... It's okay. It's okay..." my mom repeats while patting my head.

"I-I hurt him, and he has no one to comfort him. I can't even do anything about it be-because I hurt him." I say while crying even more, I can't get my words straight.

"It hurts this bad because you love him. You care. You can't convince yourself that you don't." my mom says softly. I cry more in her shoulders until she has to go to work. She gives me some already made sandwiches and water but I ignore it and sink into my thoughts.

How will I even face him in classes tomorrow?? How will I see him without breaking down?

1pm turns into 2pm. 2pm turns into 3pm. And just like that, the bright day skies, turn into dark and gloomy skies.

I stare out the window at Heeseung's room, and stare at all the things in his room I already have memorized. I think about the one person I have, that I can trust. Well now, not really.

My Bitch<3:

Me: jiwoo please, answer.

Me: jiwoo? please i need someone to talk to.

My Bitch<3: what do you want? ive been busy.

Me: oh sorry. I just needed someone to talk to

My Bitch<3: ok. Speak.

Me: You sent that picture to minwoo right?

My Bitch<3: i mean yea. he deserves to see what you do at school