The Boy Next Door

46.

After that day with Jake's confession, I continue to think about Heeseung and what Jake said about him. 

Do I like him? Do I not? I've always thought of him as a bestfriend, so why am I now seeing him in this different light?

"Honey? Honey!" I hear my mom's  voice ring in my ear. 

"Yes?" I reply calmly to her. She sits on my bed and seems to look super concerned for me. Oh boy. 

"What's on your mind? Is it that bastard Minwoo? Is he bothering you? Or Hyunwoo? If he touched you-" my mom bombards me questions. 

"No it's not Hyunwoo, mom. I'm over him. I'm just gonna enjoy being single. And I can't even speak of the other bastard." I say, it totally being a lie. It's hard getting up every morning, and my days just feel.... emptier? 

I'm trying to convince myself, he's bad for me, he cheated. But there's still that part that hopes we could have worked out. We were together for a year, that meant something. Well to me it did. 

"Honey then what's wrong? Your always in a cloud of thought now, and your not like how you were before. I miss your loudness and nonsense." she asks. 

"Okay, say there was a boy. He's your friend. And you don't know if you like him as a friend, or like like him like love." I say. 

My mom bursts out laugh while shaking her head, while I pout at her response. 

"Sorry sorry. Well honey, think about him. Think about all your good moments, and happy times you've had, and see if that makes your heart beat faster. Or you feel your face getting red." she says. I follow her advice and think about Heeseung and all our happy moments. 

All the times he's protected me when I got drunk, oh when we went to the arcade and stayed there till night, when we spent all night laughing. I trail off into my thoughts and feel my face becoming heated and my heart beats a million beats per minute. 

"Honey, that's love. Your blushing. Cute. Young love is adorable. You and Heeseung are meant for each other." she says catching me off guard. 

"Yah! Mom!! This is not about him!!" I shout while she just chuckles and leaves. Moms know everything. 

My phone blows up and I reach over to check it and see its the group chat we made. Oh right! We were going to go to the restaurant today for thanksgiving. 

Teletubbies: (7 people)

Jake: Okay everyone knows the plan and can go tdy right??

Namjin: yarp. Me and boram are coming together gonna look sexyyy

Jay: Boram you better not. 

Sunghoon: yea imma wear a suit 

Namjin: CHAEEEEEWONNN can you come to my house and get ready??! :>

Jake: nuh uh, im going to her house rn so naur

Me: yea yea sorry bor and nam

Heeseung: Your what now?

Sunghoon: homeboy responds once chaewon breathes in the chat /j

Heeseung: stfu. Chaewon, do you want me to come over? I'm going to be late to the dinner cause i have things to take care of. 

Jake: did you ignore what I said? I'm going over, no need for you.

Chaewon: Hee, its okay. dont worry

Heeseung: Stay with Jay okay? 

Jay: bruh did you just threaten my bloodline for me to take care of chaewon...