Right now it is 11am and at 12:30pm I have to leave to be able to meet Finley and Jack, with Tilly, at 2pm. My heart is beating so hard. My skin is clammy and my stomach is churning. I'm finding it hard to breathe. Pretty sure I'm on the edge of having an anxiety attack. How wonderful. Great timing body, great timing. Thanks for that.
Uncle Zane, why do I have to be like this? It makes me feel so unbelievably vulnerable. I feel so small and pathetic. But I am doing the breathing that you taught me. I just need to get up and get ready. I mean, I'm going to be meeting the guy of my dreams!
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Right. I feel pretty crappy right now so that's just a sign that I should just stay home right? Honestly, I don't know who I thought I was believing that I would be able to go meet some random guy. There aren't any red flags, true. But surely the biggest thing I am trying to get my head around is the fact that he would want to meet up with me in the first place.
I just need to get it over with. Put my big girl head on and go regardless whether or not it goes good or bad. I hope for good of course but I'm expecting the worst.
I've decided to go with skinny jeans, a white vest top and a thin longline cardigan because I like comfort over showing off my body so if Finley doesn't like that then obviously I don't need him in my life. I have also loosely plaited my hair in great attempts to actually look nice though, so I am hoping that if it does look an absolute twat that Tilly will come to my rescue.
I'm ready now, Uncle Z. Wish me luck! I'll write to you all about it later. 🤞
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Fiksi Remaja{PREVIOUSLY OCTAVIA'S JOURNAL} After her parent's unexpected break up, 15 year old Octavia Johnson is gifted a journal by her Uncle Zane. They share a bond no one really understands and she uses the journal to try to stay close to him once she moves...
