Desire C.B

14

Double update. I wrote this in one sitting lol. Read 13 first!

T/W: Drug and alcohol mention - brief, mention of rehab 

Not me giving you Colby's POV twice in a row

Part two to 13 👀 - just a filler cus why not before things get more... "rough"

*Colby's POV*

"Wh-what?" Leighton stuttered, my heart racing.

"I.."

"Colby" She whispered, my heart feeling like it was going to burst.

I was speechless.

This is not at all how I thought this night would go.

"Do you.. wait" She paused, her face looking panicked.

Shit.

"Like.. romantically?" She asked and I froze.

Did I mean it romantically?

I think I did..

Why am I questioning it?

"Leigh-"

"No, wait!" She stopped me, jumping off my lap, starting Nova.

Nova's head sprung up to look at her, sleepiness clear in her eyes.

"Don't startle her" I told Leighton, petting Nova calmly.

"You startled me!" She exclaimed and I groaned, regretting my words.

"Romantically or platonically Cole!" She yelled, her body tense as she stared down at me.

"Both?"

"Colby!" 

"What?!"

"You can't just go and say you love me!"

"Why not? I meant it-"

"THAT'S THE PROBLEM!" She yelled, myself now standing up so we were metaphorically on an even playing field.

"What's wrong with that? You know Leighton, I don't go throwing that word around loosely!"

"EITHER DO I!" She yelled, and Nova jumping off the couch, barking at us. "Nova!" Leighton scolded when she jumped on me and I just shook my head, shrugging the dog off my waist, her barks still in my ears.

"Come here Nova" I patted the floor, now sitting. I focused my attention on Nova, not wanting her to wake Gemma.

"Please stop yelling. Nova doesn't like it, and Gemma is asleep" I begged, Leighton's arms crossed over her chest. "Why are you mad that I said I love you?" I asked, intrigued yet confused.

"Because that's a big step! Something neither of us are anywhere near! We're not even dating! We've only known each other for almost a year, and we've only been friends for what.... 6 months? 7 months? You can't just say nice things, say you love me and expect it'll be okay! I- I'm not there yet! I.. I don't even know what's going on half the time! I barely know who I am, let alone how I feel about you! Do I love you platonically? Yeah. You mean a lot to me! But I.. I'm not in love with you Colby! And I'm sorry if that hurts.. but I'm done lying to you! I'm done protecting you! I told you in that truce that I wouldn't do that anymore!"

"I didn't expect you to say it back, Leighton, but I.. I want to rest easy knowing I told you. Knowing that when you go into treatment tomorrow, you know that. You don't have to believe me, or agree with me.. but I meant it"

"Why! Why do you mean it!" She whined, a cry to her voice.

"Do you want me to take it back?" I asked and she pouted, shaking her head.