Desire C.B

27

*Leighton's POV*

I've never felt more dumb in my life than I do right now, sitting in the hotel by myself.

My head just kept replaying everything that happened, from Kat and I joking around, to me yelling at Colby, all the way to the silent car ride back.

No one said a word.

I sat on the hotel bed, scrolling through photos on my phone, trying to drown out the thoughts in my head as I waited for Colby to come back, that is if he ever comes back.

He ended up going to Sam and Kat's room three hours ago, and I haven't seen or heard from him since.

I wanted this room to swallow me whole.

The AC unit was the only sound in the room, and it felt suffocating.

I ended up lulling off to the soft hum of the amenities whilst waiting, only to get the crap scared out of me when Sam and Colby busted through the door, yelling my name.

"WHAT?!" I shouted, gasping as my whole body jolted forward. "Jesus christ" I exhaled, my heart pounding as they stood in front of the bed with their laptop.

"WE CAUGHT GOOD EVIDENCE DURING YOUR FLASHLIGHT CONVERSATION!" Sam exclaimed, making my head pound.

"Great. Good for you. I'm going back to bed" I muttered, slumping back down, tugging the comforter back up and rolling over.

"Don't you want to see?" Sama asked, and I felt pressure on the bed next to me.

"I've had a shit day, I wanna sleep" I replied, my words muffled by the pillow.

"But Leigh-" Sam started, Colby cutting him off.

"Let me talk to her. We can show her in the morning, it's fine. We really should get some sleep" He said, surprising me.

They talked back and forth for a minute before Sam ended up leaving and I felt the bed still, hearing Colby's breathing next to me.

"Are you asleep?" he asked softly and I mentally sighed.

"Trying to be" I muttered back tiredly, wanting to be back in the peaceful environment that was my unconscious.

"I know you're really tired.. but I just want to say sorry again. I have a lot to apologize for, but mainly I'm sorry for making you feel like shit" 

I sighed out loud this time, rolling onto my back, shifting around a bit only to see Colby was also laying on his back, his head turned to look at me.

"You didn't make me feel like shit" I said and he just stared at me. "We both said things we shouldn't have. I'm just as much at fault as you are. I never should've sworn, yelled, or pushed you. I'm incredibly sorry for that" I apologized, Colby's face scrunching up a bit.

"You were upset. I said things I shouldn't have. I deserved that"

I quickly shook my head, now staring at the ceiling, not wanting to look at his eyes anymore. "No one deserves that. If the tables were turned, and it was you doing that to me, a lot of people would consider it domestic abuse. I had no right to yell at you"

"Leighton, you were angry. I understand" 

"Stop brushing my actions under the rug" I grumbled, feeling frustrated by how understanding he always is.

"Leighton-" he started but I shook my head.

"I have to be held accountable Colby! I have a daughter! I can't be yelling and swearing at you and running away all the time! I'm going to be twenty two! I have an almost 7 month old! I need to grow the fuck up! What I did was not okay! It was me who raised their voice, who swore, who ran.... I can't do that anymore. No matter how mad you make me"