Desire C.B

15

Song: I'm Fine - Demi Lovato (Unreleased, the video might get taken down but as of right now you can listen to it lol) - there are many reasons I love this song, and have it downloaded to my laptop for writing.. but it fits this chapter very well so :)

This chapter was supposed to be last chapter (14) if I didn't do the filler lol. The ily wasn't planned lol

Colby's POV for the third time in a row??? Unheard of.

(no cus why am I getting emotional at their goodbye?-)

*Colby's POV*

 Sitting outside a rehab facility at 8:30 in the morning is something I never thought I'd be doing. 

Leighton's hand was death gripping my own as she cried next to me, Gemma fast asleep in the car seat behind us.

"It's going to be okay Leigh" I reassured her, Leighton nodding next to me, using her free hand to wipe at her face. 

She hasn't really said a whole lot this morning. She's been trapped in her own thoughts and it's slowly killing me.

I wanted to make this better. To make it easier, but I had no idea how.

"We need to go get you checked in" I told her softly, my eyes glued on her.

She pulled her hand out of mine, and opened the car door, not uttering a single word. 

I let out a deep sigh and followed her lead.

Once I had a secure hold on Gemma's carrier, I held my hand out for Leighton, not really giving it a second thought, and neither did she as she intertwined our fingers.

We went through the check in process, greeting a few people here and there as we were brought up to Leighton's room.

Leigh set her bag down next to the bed, looking around the room. It was fairly nice. It was just like any other bedroom you'd find in someone's home, just less personalized. It almost just looked like you were staying in someone's guest room.

Thankfully Gemma was still passed out in the carrier so I was able to give all my attention to Leighton. "What are you thinking about?" I asked quietly, too afraid fully to break the silence.

I've honestly been on edge all morning, and it didn't help that I struggled to fall asleep last night.

This was such new territory for me, that I was afraid to royally fuck up. Plus, all I could think about was how I'd be here, and she'll be there. 

"How much I don't want to leave her" She replied back just as softly, glancing down at the sleeping baby. "How much I don't want to leave you.." She whispered.

"We're coming right back for you Leigh. You're not being left here" I reminded her and she nodded.

"I want to hold her. I don't care if I wake her up. I want to hold my baby girl" She said with a slight whine to her voice and I nodded, letting Leigh have better access to the car seat since it was behind me.

Leighton kneeled down, unclipping the buckles and carefully pulling Gemma out of the carrier.

I felt like I was intruding on such a private moment, but what broke my heart even more was watching Leighton fully break down as she held Gemma to her chest, trying hard not to let the shaking of her body from her sobs wake the baby.

One hand was cradling Gemma's head, the other holding her butt as she was held close to Leigh's chest. "I love her" She said, looking up at me with tearful eyes. "I love her so so so much" She cried and I felt my chest tighten as I crouched down in front of Leigh. "I... god I'm a horrible mother" She whispered, and I shook my head, moving the palm of my hand to her knee.