RETROUVAILLES - POETRY

60 - everything goes on

remember how i told you,
how much i hate the sea.
how much it terrifies me,
not knowing anything about it?
that it would swallow me whole?
where would i go?
where would it take me?
what lies beyond the unknown?

the unknown, it, it scares me.
it scares me not knowing what would happen.
it scares me not knowing how and what is swallowing me.
i'm scared of not knowing if i would ever have another chance to see you again?

i would be gone, nothing remains.
i'm so scared of being overcasted,
left in forsaken places,
as if i'm just a story that you've been told.
and there's nothing remained for you to remember of me.

while you sat there,
listening on the choked up,
tears felt rambling,
you calmly told me, "i would always stay by your side. i promise you, nothing in this world would ever scare or hurt you anymore."
i was unsure.
promises were made with me but
it was never kept.
how sure were you that the chains you made,
won't break?
i have the burden of dragging these old tarnished, rusty chains behind my back.
chains that were left,
forgotten,
never to be remembered again.
you said, "i would bring the shore to you. if you float high enough, you would see them."

someday i might be overcast,
and i'm so scared of getting used to this.
all these chains, keeping me tethered to the ground.
but i felt you on my shoulder,
you weren't suffering anymore.

if i was gone tomorrow,
you won't have to cry.
because we will do the grieving,
while i'm by your side.

for now i will keep bringing the shore to you.
every time these chains,
rips my soul apart,
the dark, murky water engulfs me whole,
promise me,
will you meet me by the shore like we did before?

i do not want my past to define my soul anymore.
and when i'm better, we'll do everything.
i said, "i'm sorry that you worry, but don't apolagize."
i've told you to forget me,
but you stayed by my side.

in everything, you gave your all.
i get a glimpse of the shore,
and the stars,
don't you see?
they are shining for you.

someday we'd breath one's last,
so, let's pretend a little longer?
when we depart this life,
everything goes on.