Mytho-Academy Next Generation

Chapter 15: Struggle

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Warning:
This chapter contains themes like self harm, please read at your own risk
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Lucas

Damnit... Lucy...

It's all my fault...

All I could think about this past week was how I failed Lucy. Every single day, the thought lingered in my mind, taking over every though I had. I wanted to be there for Mom, but I just couldn't. I couldn't face her after how badly I failed.

I only recently saw her today when we summoned that Sky girl from Tartarus. But that's a whole can of worms I won't get into. The second Mom and I were alone back at my dorm, a shadowy aura surrounded her, like what happened to me when I got angry.

Angel: "Y-You were supposed to keep her safe..."

Lucas: "I... I couldn't have done anything—"

She suddenly slapped me, rage the only thing in her eyes. I didn't even flinch as a large red mark appeared on my cheek. However the second she did that, all of the anger vanished from her eyes. She immediately broke down crying and grabbed onto me tightly.

Angel: "L-Lucas...! I-I'm so sorry...!! I'm sorry...!!!"

I hugged her back. I had never seen Mom so angry like that in my life. Even though she apologized for the slap, it was completely justified. I'm the reason we lost Lucy and Dad. It's my fault.

Of course I'm not mad at her for slapping me, even though she's hiding it, she partly blames me for it.

Later that night, I just gave up. I laid in bed, wishing for all of this to go away. I even managed to get Lily to leave me alone for a bit, which was a blessing.

I had taken my shirt off, since it was more comfortable this way. Even in the complete dark, I could see recent cuts on my wrist and arm. Thankfully, no one has caught this yet.

Once tears began running down my face, I formed a dagger made out of the shadows and held it up to my arm.

Suddenly, my bedroom door opened and Mom walked in. The light from the hallway revealed everything. The second Mom saw me, she gasped and ran over to me.

Angel: "L-Lucas!!"

She grabbed my arm, making my dagger go away. I couldn't look at her.

Angel: "W-What do you think you're doing!!!"

My hair covered my eyes.

Lucas: "It's... my fault... I need to... repent somehow..."

I felt a tear fall onto my hand.

Angel: "S-Sweetie, it's not your fault...!!!"

She grabbed me and pulled me into a big hug. She cried into my shoulder, making me almost cry too.

Angel: "P-Please... stop this... It wasn't your fault... I'm sorry for snapping at you earlier... I... I just... I can't take this.... I lost Connor before, many years ago... and... I just can't take losing him again... then I lost my daughter... Lucas... I can't lose you too...."

She rubbed my arm.

Angel: "I've done what you're doing now... back when I was your age, I had these kinds of problems too... I still have scars from it... but... please... I'm here for you, sweetie... you've been trying so hard to be strong for me, I don't think I've even seen you cry... Please... Lucas, just let it out..."