An Epistolary | 🧸
At 17, Samantha didn't know how to cope up with the loss and grief of losing someone she loves, trying to save herself from self-destruction and longing she tried to seek the presence of her Lost spirit into something she know tha...
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Secret Keeper
This is not a good day for me.
Why what's wrong? Did anything happen?
I...
You?
I just can't go outside and pretend that I'm okay Rick, everyone's moving forward and I can't cope. Everyone moved on but not me. It's fucking painful inside Rick.
Hold on, I can now use the call button.
Do you want me to call?
Yes. Yes please, I want to hear your voice.
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Secret Keeper is Calling Through Telegram
"Hello..."
"Sammy."
"Rick."
I sobbed more hearing his faint voice, napadiin Ang Hawak sa kanyang cellphone na gamit ko. it's painful in my chest to hear the statics from the other line.
"Shh, hush now. It's alright I'm fine. You will be fine, can you hear me? Can you hear me clearly?"
"Yes! Yes, oh my god. You're real! I'm not dreaming aren't I?"
Para akong tangang naiiyak at natatawa dahil sa Nangyayari.
"No you're not, this is really me."
I heard his faint chuckle, I miss that. I miss his smile.
"H-how? I thought... you're..."
"Gone? Physically yes, but I'm living through you, Sam. Kahit nasaan ka pa makarating, as long as you remember me. I'm alive, in your heart."
"Rick..."
I can't, I just can't accept it this way. The pain is seaming under my soul. Shattering the hope I try to build every day.
"We can talk to each other until you're okay, until you're fine. I will always be with you, because that's the only way I know how to love you from here Sammy. I don't know what to do anymore, Ang alam ko lang ay kailangan mo pa 'ko. At gusto kitang makausap. Hangang sa makapag paalam ka na saakin."
"Makapag paalam?"
"Oo, makapagpaalam. Makaahon. You deserve to be happy Sam and I'm so sorry if God I only gave us a short time to be together this is my end and not yours, so please live."
"You will always call me? Can I hear your voice again?"
"As long as you pick it up, marami pa tayong oras. Ayaw ko na masasayang lang iyon sa lungkot."
Maybe he is right, he is the only remedy I need. Through my darkest night and darkest sailing across the cold black sea, he is my lighthouse willing to stay to guide me from afar.
