My random ass poetic thoughts

Poem number 13: She's still here

She's still here,

just about almost every time she gets mad at me,

she either sends me a text message,

or tells me to my face that I'm blocked,

and that my number is deleted,

and just when I'm about to keep going on with my life without her,

she texts my phone or inboxes my social media,

and she's still here,

it's funny cause last time she said,

"and don't try and download no text app to contact me either",

she must got me confused with these other niggas that do that with these other bitches,

cuase I don't even do that shit,

but she's still here,

cause when a bitch says she wants no part of me,

I give her exactly what she wants,

no part of me,

not my mind,

body,

heart,

or soul,

no part of me,

but she's still here,

I feel like my smile gone ever since I had my stroke and fell off the front porch and chipped my front top two teeth way before I met her,

So i don't really know what keeps her comin around,

is it cause I'm a hood nigga and always been a hood nigga,

cause unlike my ex fiancee that promised me in front of my mine in my hospital room when I had my stroke that she'll always be by my side and never leave and always be here,

she's still here,

yea the same woman in my she don't want me poem,

she's still here,

so I guess you can say my best friend came back, 

cause,

she's still here,

truthfully I think she be tryna throw her lil secret tests at me,

and if she is,

I hope I'm passin with flyin colors,

cause she's still here,

cause I ain't gonna cap,

I be throwin her my own lil secret tests,

and if you wanna know her progress,

you guessed it,

nigga she still here,

I study the way she treats me and intereacts with me,

and sometimes it reminds me of a lauryn hill lyric from her song the sweetest thing,

cause she gets mad when I walk away,

she gets mad,

so like I said earlier in this poem,

"she either sends me a text message,

or tells me to my face that I'm blocked,

and that my number is deleted,

and just when I'm about to keep going on with my life without her,

she texts my phone or inboxes my social media",

so she tells me to leave,

when she means stay,

and she's still here,

I mean,

let's be real,

it ain't really no women out here lookin for no top ranked author of a book on wattpad,

so why is she still here,

it ain't no women out here lookin for no nigga with no chipped front too,

so why is she still here,

it's definitely no women out here lookin for a nigga that sleep in his parents basement,

especially that ain't got a car,

cause it don't matter that I used to have hella cars in the past before I met them,

so why is she still here,

she don't even find me attractive,

but look,

so why is she still here,

trust me don't get me wrong,

I'm glad she's still here,

but why is she still here,

but at the end of the day,

the point is,

she's really my lover and my friend,

 she's still here.