My random ass poetic thoughts

Poem number 7: How I feel about her

I love her as both a friend and a lover,

 but I'm no fool,

For nobody,

We never made anything official,

But my love for her was pure and official,

If she comes to me about a problem she got,

I'm not gonna lie to myself and say I don't wanna help and I'm not gonna help,

Cause she snuck into this sweet spot in my heart and mind,

And just the sound of her voice make my soul melt,

But I'm still single,

I hate arguing with her,

I get stick to my stomach about it knowin that she made me mad,

Cause I know I can say some hurtful shit,

and I don't wanna hurt this chick,

I be with my homeboys and when she text my phone I get and understand what usher meant by you got it bad,

But with or without her,

I'mma get to the bag,

Cause that's how it always been,

and how it'll always be,

I think she don't realize that I don't depend on no one,

It was always me,

but this last arguement we just had got me buildin my wall back up,

brick my brick,

layer by layer,

and reinforcin the walls with thickness,

cause I dont wanna be or even see out there,

It's gonna take someone truy amazin with a wreckin ball at hand to get past this shit,

I pray that she makes it through all of her problems in one piece,

I pray her path is guarded and guided by angels, cause she's someone that wants peace,

her secrets,

I'll take those to the grave,

If I never see her again,

I'm still the one that runs streets,

I pray she reaches success,

cause a lot can change when a person just turns one leaf,

When she looks into my eyes,

she makes me feel like she staring at my innocence,

but soon she won't see it if she look into these eyes again,

Cause things I see daily is slowly re-gettin rid of this,

I can feel her pain better than she thinks I can,

that's why I don't wanna add to it,

I know that she believe in God,

so she gone get through it,

but if this is really goodbye,

And I mean goodbye foreva,

everyday best friend I hope the lord bless ya.