My random ass poetic thoughts

Poem number 20: Pain

Pain,

so in the last few days I been in bed and house rest,

cause I'm in pain,

my broke my jaw,

and bit and cut up my tongue,

and this pain,

this shit is constant,

When I'm layin down, I can't sit up in bed without it adding to the pain,

I guess it's cause I gotta lean my head up forwards or something and lead my body with my head,

but this is pain,

pain in my cheekbones,

pain on the tip of my tongue,

I try and talk,

the shit is pain,

I open my mouth to eat,

the shit is pain,

and this pain is unbearable,

so much pain sometimes I wanna kill myself or something to end it before i even go to my surgery in three days,

man i'm talkin about PAIN,

PAIN,

PAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN!,

If I walk too fast,

I guess the vibrations of my body is makin the pain even worse,

Cause I can feel it in the corner of my jawline,

Therefore the doctors orders for me to not do too much heavy activity while I'm healing,

I can't go down the stairs too hard or I'mma feel the weight of my body pressing down on my foot jump up through my body and hit my jaw and send me right back into, yep you guessed it,

pain,

waking up  damn near 30 minutes all night because of,

pain,

trying to readjust my body in my sleep to avoid and adapt to,

pain,

sleeping with ice packs covering my jaws forehead cheeks and back of my neck to reduce the,

pain,

I just want this living nightmare to be over,

who ever knew a studio session with my neighbors and my lil cousin would end with me passing out on the balcony and sending me into such,

great,

pain,

I can't take this shit,

I can barely even laugh,

the joy a laughter will send me into,

pain,

my mouth won't close all the way,

my teeth won't align,

I'm just ready for this surgery to happen so everything can get back to normal,

and get rid of this PAIN,

If I try and move and rest my tongue the wrong way,

I'mma straight up feel,

PAIN,

I trust the driving skills of the people I be ridin with,

but I be praying twice as hard for the time being that the other muh fuckas on the road aren't non-diriving idiots so they won't hit us and add to this pain,

trying to brush my teeth,

that shit brings pain,

using mouth wash,

that shit brings pain,

even the soft food I eat for my soft food diet they put me on still brings pain,

I drink Ice cold water and my tongue turns into a fire of pain,

trying to take my medication the doctor gave me for my jaw and ease my pain,

IN ITSELF IS PAIN,

taking my meds is way easier and better now in compare to day one,

but it's still pain,

day one taking the meds my doctor gave me,

man this pain was so intense,

I didn't even see how I was gonna be able to get this big ass antibiotic pill into my mouth to take a drink to swallow it down,

pain was so horrible,

felt the same for this small ass pain killer the doctor prescribed me,

I'm just ready for this pain to end,

and you'd truly understand this poem,

if you ever been in pain my friend.