Architect of paradise (PART I: Out of the Ruins)

24. Passionate flames

     I was really sad. After I came back last night, I don't remember doing anything else but sleeping while crying. In the morning, my eyes were red. Alice wanted to talk to me and I told her what happened. She got angry at him. I wasn't angry. I was disappointed and sad. I knew that my reactions would push him away and I just saw it happening. I was lucky that it is Saturday. I didn't want to go to work. I wanted to stay inside.

Then, the door rang and Alice opened. It was him. I could hear him talk to Alice and please her to let him talk to me. Alice was already angry with him and she wouldn't do that. She wanted to close the door but he stopped her. They were fighting at the door so I meddled in.

I got outside to let him talk to me and he seemed sad and scared. I didn't know what he was afraid of. We talked for a bit and then he hugged me. He said that he didn't want to lose me. His words made my heart shake. Alice went out to let us alone. It was my opportunity to talk to him.

Now, I sit next to him and with all the courage I have, I start to talk to him about my past and fears. He listens to me with patience. I can't to not tremble as I remember the terrible past. In the end, I confess to him my feelings. I don't know what will be his reaction. If he rejects me, I don't know what will happen to me. However, it's a surprise for me his sloppy confession. I look at him and I can see warmth and love. Yes, love and I can't resist. I touch his face and I kiss him lightly. I can feel him trembling.

Our eyes meet and new strong flames burst. His hands catch my head and he kisses me more aggressively. I can feel his passion as his tongue gets into my mouth and a new battle is starting with mine. I close my eyes and I just let him do whatever he wants. His body approaches mine. He hugs me while he is kissing me and my body lies behind in the couch. I am still afraid of the touch but for some reason, his touch is like fire. It doesn't scare me. In the opposite, it causes the fire in me to wake again.

His lips free mine and they go down on my neck. I tremble in his hands.

-"Are you okay?" He asks and I can't keep my tears. With his lips, he wipes them and he kisses me again. My arms hug him, too.

With a sudden movement, he picks me up in his arms. We leave the living room and we go to the bedroom. My heart is thumbing from the nervousness. He let me on the bed lightly. His lips kisses me again trying to get me get used to his touch. After my lips, he kisses my neck. He hangs above me and I stare inside his eyes. This time, he is not aggressive. He is patient and gentle. He is warm.

He is just kissing me but he is putting on a really strong fire inside me. My arms have their own will and a grab his T-shirt. I take it off and I can see his bare chest. It's muscular and hairless. It is almost slippery. I touch it and I can feel his heart beating really fast.

-"You know that there is no back, don't you?" He says with a cunning gaze. I nod.

He takes off my blouse. I blush as I am with my underwear only. He smiles. His hands take off even them and my body remains naked in front of him. His hands touch my back and my tears are running again. I am sure that he can feel my scars but he doesn't say anything. His lips just kiss my whole body and I can't stand the fire in me.

-"Daniel..." I whisper.

He takes off my pants and before I can realize what is going to happen, I can feel his tongue in a very womanly and sensitive place. I grab the covers of my bed tightly. I can hear the lewd sounds of his tongue inside me and my whole face is red. I had forgotten how to make love. He took off his pants. He comes up again and kisses me. Now I can feel his naked body with the naked mine.

-"I want you." He whispers and the next moment I feel something big hot and tough inside me.

I let a scream of surprise that he covers with his kiss again. My hands tighten my hold on the bed covers but he puts them around his neck. I grab him as he moves inside and out of me. In the meantime, he kisses me on the lips, on the neck and on my chest. I let small sounds of joy and lust. This is like my first time. It is so beautiful warm and passionate. Not rough and violent. I feel nube. A strong fire burning me and I don't want to be saved. It is really different from Terry and every other love I felt in the past. I really love him.

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She is sleeping like an angel. After this passionate morning, now she is sleeping tired in my arms. She smells like roses and tastes like sugar. I can't believe that I have these feelings. I thought that I will never love in my life. I thought that love was fairy tales for the children. I was working in the rough neighbors of Washington and I was seeing a lot of terrible things. Love was not one of them. I played with the women and I was not a good person.

Now, I don't want my past to soil her innocence and her bright heart. I don't want for her to feel ashamed of me. I don't want her to be afraid of me. I need to be a better man so that she can be proud of me. I want her heart and body. I want her in my life and I don't believe it. She is not like the other women. She is the one and only in my life. I can't screw this up, otherwise I will be a real jerk.

She opens her eyes and I am losing myself in these green jungles. I kiss her on her lips and I touch her skin on her arm.

-"You finally woke up." I say playfully. She smiles.

-"How long are you awake?"

-"Not long, but enough to admire your beauty."

-"Sly liar!"

-"I am telling the truth."

-"It is not true. I have so many scars in my back." She says and I feel really angry again for that man. She touches my cheek.

-"Thank you." She says.

-"For what?"

-"You feel angry for my sake."

My heart is pounding again. I hug her.

-"I will always be by your side. I will always feel anger for your sake or I will feel happiness together with you." I can't believe the words I am saying. I don't even know if I blushing or not. She smiles. I realized that her smile is so bright like the sun. I want to see it all the time. I want to hear it everywhere like a famous song.

-"Kiss me." I say and she kisses me on the cheek. Her lips are warm and silky. I want to succumb in our passion again but she pushes me aside.

-"Alice will be back." She says. I smile.

-"Your Kerberos." I joke but her eyes are really serious.

-"Alice is my best friend and my savior."

-"I know. I own her for bringing you here." I manage to make her smile again. It is really noteworthy to cause her smile. Then, after a deep kiss, I wear my clothes. So does she.

-"When will I meet you?" I ask her.

-"Tomorrow we can go for a walk at the river."

-"After the rain it will be no safe. We can go for a date at Harrisonburg." I suggest.

-"Our official date?" She asks cunningly.

-"Yes, this is ourfirst official date. You are my girlfriend now." I say clearly and after onemore kiss, I leave.