Daraga Series #1: The Fire's Sanctuary

the fire's sanctuary

run away

The words that I always hear when I am in a phase of adversity, it's always in a whisper.. but it's so loud that I always listen.

Whether the conflict's big or not.. I always want to run away. I perfected the habit of running away at the first sign of discomfort, I always choose to run away. I always see myself as weak, I always say I can't do it.

there were times na nasa bahay kami ni Lolo at nagalit siya sa akin dahil sa takot ko iniwan ko ang dalawang kapatid ko sa kanya kahit sinabi sa akin ni Mommy na huwag na huwag ko silang iwan. There were times that if a get so lonely, I'd be just out of there sight hiding in the CR, my room and.. I cry. I let my emotions out alone.. I run away, I run away again and again.

I don't like the feeling of discomfort.. I hate it so much, all my life I always try to avoid it... but sometimes life just pushes you out of that comfort zone, they said that it's because out there.. out that comfort zone, you'll see life.

But when you have to deal with so much responsibilities and conflicts.. do we really have to do it? to be out of it? is it really worth it?

Of course I despised it, I despised myself being that weak.. but there was a time in my life that I loved running away, that I never felt guilty.. that I never felt lonely running away.

I remembered many times running to him because I just wanted to.. I loved it, I loved his comfort, warmth... and love.

But life has just it's own way.. own paths, own story to tell.

They say that sanctuary is a protection from danger or a difficult situation that is provided by a safe place. He's my sanctuary..

Camrix Licerio Agoncillo was once my sanctuary.. but he left.

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Started: August 9, 2022