Daraga Series #1: The Fire's Sanctuary

Chapter 16

"What happened?" I looked up lazily from his lips up to his eyes. Napakurap ako hindi maintindihan kung ano ba ang sinasabi niya. He asked me too many questions pero hindi ko na nasundan pagkatapos ng nangyari.

Ano bang pinagsasabi nito? Nagsalita naman siya pero para akong nabingi instead of trying to concentrate ay napababa ulit ang tingin ko sa labi niya.

"Lorianna!" inis na tawag niya kaya naman napaangat ako ng tingin sa galit niyang mata. Napawang ang labi ko dahil kanina pa pala siya nagsasalita ako naka-focus lang sa goal.

"Ha?" I asked and inis siyang napailing.

"I was asking you if there is a problem?" naroon pa ang konting inis sa mukha niya pero malumanay na ang tono ngayon.

"Ahh.. nag-away kasi kami ni Mommy.." maikling tugon ko, I thought it was enough but when I looked at him once again he looked like he was waiting for me to talk more. I contemplated if I'll tell him since I feel like he would say the same thing na sinabi ni Mommy. He also knew that I was not a good student.. I wasn't responsible, I don't work hard and I have bad grades.. I can't still decide yet but what he will say will have a great impact to me kaya naman kahit hindi ako komportable ay pinili kong sabihin na lang.

"She did not like that I took medtech for college.. sabi niya hindi ko naman kakayanin." I said, I tried to laugh it off dahil alam ko naman na tama naman si Mommy atsaka feeling ko pagtatawanan niya rin ako sa naging desisyon ko pero.. hindi.

"Yes, it's really hard, but do you want it?" tanong niya hindi ako nilulubayan ng tingin, nawala ang ngiti na pilit ko ipinaskil sa labi.. do I really want it?

"Because if it's really what you want then you'll work hard for it.." he said.

"Mahihirapan ka, but if it is what you really want you can always pull it off."

Honestly.. I don't know. They all said that it was hard, this course is really hard.. pero hindi ko alam kung ano ba talagang gusto ko.. o kung meron ba. I don't have that dream course that they say.. I don't even have a dream job.

But the thought that my Dad will like me again, proud of me again.. that thought makes me really happy, that if ever I make him proud he will love me again the way he did before.

I don't have anything in mind, I don't have a specific course that I like then I will try this one.. susubukan ko.. maybe it will be worth it.

I smiled at him, "Mahirap.. pero susubukan ko." I said sounding so determined.

He smiled back, "Then you can tell her that.. that it's really what you want, and besides you have a dean's lister boyfriend now. I'll help you if you need my help." nanliit ang mata ko sa kanya, I tried to hide my smile but I just couldn't.

"Tayo na ba?" nawala ang ngisi at lumanay sa mata niya bumalik ang iritasyon niya at bahagyang nagulat pa.

"We kissed—"

"Ikaw naman yung nanghalik—" saad ko pero hindi niya ako pinatapos.