Fooled around and fell in love [eng]

Never again

AU completely alternative, nothing has happened from Upside Down, season 3
TW: Character death and description of violence involving a minor

He didn't know what he was doing, his feet and hands were moving faster than his brain, he was so scared, there was so much yelling and banging, things breaking. He remembered. He remembered that his father had told him that that ended any argument, that you always listened to whoever had one, maybe if he took it his parents would stop.

He didn't know what was going on, he just knew that his mother was screaming, that he was hurting her, he could hear her crying. He just wanted him to stop, he wanted to protect her, and his father had told him that it would protect them from those people who wanted to hurt them.
He didn't know what it did, he had only seen it in western movies, but his mother said those were fake, toy movies, and this was no toy. However, he remembered his father telling him, one night when he reeked of sadness, that all he had to do was pick it up and pull it.

"Just pull, William, and boom, no more trouble"

It reminded Billy of a magic wand, although the shape was very different, but all you had to do was handle it and you'd have everything you wanted, it really sounded wonderful. So he walked slowly, long quiet steps, out of his bedroom and into the kitchen, where his parents were fighting once more. It was on the table, his father reeked of sadness again and had brought it out of hiding, that's what started the fight, his mother didn't like that object, she didn't like when his father smelled of sadness either.

Billy dodged the empty bottles on the table, his father's medicine, his mother hated it, Billy didn't understand how she could hate it, medicine is good, she gave him medicine when he got sick. His mother only smiled bitterly when he asked her, she said that medicine was bad, that it made you sicker.

His hands reached for the handle of that object and he dragged it towards him, making sure that his parents did not notice his presence, although there was no chance either because his mother was curled up in a ball in the corner of the room, crying and screaming, her face was red and purple, her arms too. Her father was on top of her, banging on the wall and screaming louder than she was, sometimes spitting and kicking her.

Billy lifted it up, both hands holding it because it was too heavy for a 7 year old, his little finger resting on that lever, his trembling body pointing at his father. He had to listen to him, he had it now, so he had to listen to him and stop, Billy would pull and all the problems would be over. His father had to stop smelling of sadness, he had to stop being angry, he had to stop hurting his mother, him.

-Billy!

The boy heard his mother's scream at the same moment his fingers squeezed the lever, he needed both of them because of the hardness of it, and then a big bang, the boom his father was talking about. He felt his hands burning, his wrists hurt, Billy dropped it to the floor causing a big bang, his ears ringing and little tears came out of his eyes without quite knowing why. His blue eyes lifted to see his father, who had turned at his mother's scream, he was pale and silent, rigid, his hands raised to his stomach, where a large red spot was growing.

-Billy!

His mother rushed up from the floor, approaching him, hugging him tightly to her chest, watching as the man fell to his knees still holding his bloody torso.