Worst Nightmare (A Calum Hood Fanfic)

Chapter 14: Discoveries Pt III

Discoveries Pt III:

Calum held Katelyn in his arms watching her sleep for several minutes, before he adjusted to lie on his back. Even though she was fast asleep, he felt her snuggle against him and smiled.

Calum stared at the ceiling and thought back to how miserable he had been since the night she shut him out of her life especially the long lonely nights he'd been haunted by her memories.

A vivid picture of the deep sadness and pain etched on her face the night she had come over and he had told her she was to stay out of his life, flashed through his mind. His gut tightened with guilt over causing her such a look.

He'd been seeing Meredith for a week by then and had decided since Katelyn had betrayed him by becoming a cop; he'd stay with the blonde, because at least she wasn't afraid to party with him, and she'd never stab him in the back by becoming a cop.

He huffed. His hand stilled in Katelyn's hair and his other hand clenched into a fist as the old anger welled up inside him.

He forced a deep breath into his lungs and counted to ten before exhaling. 'It felt like Katelyn had betrayed me, since she knew how much I despise cops and still chose to become one.'

His eyes moistened as he remembered how many rough times Katelyn had been there for him through thick and thin. Like the times she stood up for him when everyone teased him about his long hair. How she held him when he felt too shattered by the brutal murders of his parents, to even move. How her love and arms wrapped around him, reaching out to him whenever he was angry with the world.

His anger turned to something else as he watched her breath evenly with a peaceful expression on her face. 'Katelyn is not the type to betray the ones she loves. Why couldn't I see it before?'

His jaw clenched. 'That bitch Meredith betrayed me! She lured me away from Kate, pointing out how she was becoming the very thing I hated most – a cop. Meredith kidnapped Devin making me worry for days on end about whether or not he was live and if I'd ever get to see him again.'

His body tensed as white hot rage filled him.

Katelyn mumbled incoherently and snuggled against his chest, placing a hand over his waist as if trying to comfort him even in her sleep.

He blinked and stared down at her. 'Heh, even unconscious she's thinking of me and trying to soothe me.' He heartbeat returned to normal and he felt a serene calm settle over him, deep into his soul. Just knowing she was in his arms right now made the world feel right. 'That is so like my sweet Katelyn, thinking of others instead of herself.'

His spine stiffened and his breath hitched. He stared at the beautiful, strong woman in his arms as realization fully sank in. His hand dragged down his face. 'Dammit I'm been such a fool. How could I ever think that she would betray me? What an idiot I've been!'

His finger lightly traced her jaw and rubbed her cheek. 'No wonder she threw me out of her life.' Disgust at his actions filled him and a deep sadness filled his soul. Slowly the cold began to seep in, chasing away the warmth inside him.

As if sensing his duress, Katelyn nuzzled her face against his heart ad sighed contently. Warmth began to spread through him again melting away the coldness. A small smile spread across his face. 'I've got to find a way to make this up to her. But first I need to get the money and get our kids back.'

He stared at his sleeping angel and sighed reluctantly, before carefully shifting to move off the makeshift bed, trying to hide the bereft feeling that followed.

She felt the loss of his warmth and opened her eyes.

"Sorry I didn't mean to wake you."

She yawned. "It's okay; we need to get up anyways."