He's nothing but everything

Chapter 28 Honeymoon Phase

Liam and I were in the honeymoon phase of our relationship. Everything we did was irrevocably intimate. We laughed and joked and I was abundantly happy. There was nothing that could get in my way, I felt invincible with Liam by my side. I felt love like I never had before. I craved him, when he was not around I needed him, I longed for him, and when he was around I would do anything to feel him and his arms wrapped around me. I just felt so warm when he was with me, holding me tightly, like he never wanted to let me go. I would lay my head on his chest listening to his heart beat, and weirdly I think my heart would start beating in the same rhythm. I know it's stupid but that's just how I felt. The feeling I got when I was with him was defined by just a single word, and that word is pure, it was the purest feeling that I ever had experienced. I think I finally knew what it felt like to be loved unconditionally.

Like all phases, this one wouldn't last long. I knew it was only a matter of time before something came along and ruined everything. I thought about this everyday, it played on in my mind and like a magnet, I attracted the bad energy and my happiness ended.

It was a cold winters day and I had just finished up with my chores for the day, that's when I decided to scroll through some social media. My everyday became routined, and there wasn't much else to do because I decided to take a gap year. It was all my fault that I started to get lonely and bored, and boredom is not a good thing, when you are lonely and bored you have a lot of free time to let your mind run wild. I decided to scroll through Violas Facebook account, solely because I was inquisitive and the first picture I see up on her page is a picture of Liam and his two friends from college. Now before I continue, my biggest fear up till this day was loosing Liam, and especially loosing him to Viola, I was immensely insecure, she was prettier then me by far and Liam could get up one day and realise that she was the women of his dreams, and I would be left alone again. Night after night I would have horror dreams, the same dream over and over again and in this dream Liam was still with Viola, they were a loving couple and I was just standing by and watching them in love, many of the nights I had woken up in a sweat or even in tears because that's how much Liam meant to me, I never wanted to ever let him go, he brought out these emotions in me that I never knew existed. Now back to the story, I see Liam and his two friends on a picture that was recently posted on Violas page. I immediately screen shot the page and send it to Liam with a text.

'What is this Liam, would you mind explaining?' I text him.

'Paige, please don't misunderstand, I didn't want to tell you because I knew you would get upset.' He responds instantly.

'What is it that you think I'm misunderstanding Liam. Please speak up now because as the minutes go by I'm slowly loosing my patience.' I text him back, I'm clearly annoyed.

'So it turns out that Viola got accepted in the same college, she's studying Engineering here. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to over react.'

'Well it's simply to late. The fact that you had to hide it from me means there's something going on. If you would have simply told me the truth, told me that she was in the same college, but there's just one thing I don't understand, why is she taking out pictures of you and posting on her profile?'

'I had no clue she posted that picture, I was hanging out with Shaun and she just appeared out of nowhere and decided to sit with us in the library, then suddenly she pulls out her phone and tells us to smile. It was very weird and I left the library straight away.' 

After reading Liams last text I now understood why Viola posted his picture. She must have known I'd check her profile and she wanted to be nasty. I'm not going to let this tear us up. We were in such a good space and nothing is going to ruin that.

'Good enough you walked away Liam, but I really don't know why you did not let me know earlier that Viola was in the same college. I'm really upset right now and there's nothing you can say to change that.'

With that last text message to Liam I decide to switch my phone off because I couldn't handle anymore disappointment.