For Your Eyes Only [h.s.]

Ch. 46 - "wishing I could be there for you"

Adelaide Young
June 17, 2022
Entry #5 - Discovering Aidan

...By the time the song ended, I was at a true loss for words. You wrote a beautiful song, and it was the first time you actually played a full potential track for me to really listen to ahead of time like that.

That song made the decision for me.

I knew I could have Aidan. I wanted him. I knew I could be a mother, make my own family and do it right. And I just hoped, based off what you had written, that you would be up for that too...

Harry I'm so sorry I didn't tell you about Aidan right away, but now you know how that day went, and why I was acting so strange when you got home. Oh Harry I loved Matilda, it was a beautiful song. It is a beautiful song. I'm so sorry I made you think otherwise, I was just so scared.

Griffin saw, he knew I was chickening out. I just didn't know how to tell you about a baby when you came home so excited with the news about work, booking Coachella. Things were just exploding for you at a new level and a baby wasn't part of the picture. I didn't want to force it as part of the picture. I didn't think through how we could make it work. I couldn't fathom that you would be so invested in making it work.

I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry I didn't tell you right away about this little one. I really do think it's a girl, our little Annie. I'm thinking Annie Matilda Styles, so that everyday we can remember where our family started. It started in that song you wrote for me, in the potential you saw in me, in us.

I still think about Aidan all the time. I'm only four months or so along now, and when I do the math right I realize we wouldn't have this little one if I were still pregnant with Aidan. Life's funny that way I guess. I don't know, I guess it makes me feel extra connected to him, that Aidan and Annie are connected in a special way during these few months when I would have been pregnant with one versus the other. Maybe that's just my mind going a bit mad since I haven't seen you in so long.

Seen anyone. God I wish I knew if you were doing ok.

Like always, I love you, I miss you.

They're not hurting me.

Please be well. Forever yours,

Adelaide.

_____

Harry Styles
October 2021 - Later that day...

"Hey babe?"I call out for Adelaide as I make my way inside the flat, noticing Griffin cleaning up the kitchen with Addy nowhere to be found.

"Hey Griffin, my girl around?"

The look on Griffin's face says it all, something's wrong. She never did call me back with the results from the doctor's appointment.

"Mr. Styles. Glad to see you home, Ms. Young is uh, well she's getting changed upstairs and said she would be coming back down shortly. If you're home, I'll retire to the security wing if that's alright with you."

"Of course, but can I ask before you go, what's wrong?"

He takes a long pause, too long, to think over what he's going to say. With a sigh he finally chooses, "I feel that's between you and Ms. Adelaide, sir."

"What's between him and Ms. Adelaide?" I hear Addy call out from the top of the staircase. 

She saunters over to me, places a kiss on my cheek and walks away leaving only confusion in her wake.