Indecisive Heart

Chapter 24

"I don't know how to explain it." I shook my head, struggling to find the right words. My bowling adventure with Asher might have finally revealed what I was trying to figure out for so long. I definitely had feelings for him at this point, but they were new, raw. I still had a lot of soul searching to do.

"I was nervous to begin, but once we got going, I had completely forgotten why I had been so nervous. It's so easy for me to talk to Asher. We may have awkward moments, but our presence with each other just feels so natural. I get butterflies around him, but I feel so comfortable at the same time."

"Maybe it's a happy-nervous. Maybe the anticipation of liking someone just gives you nervous excitement." Sophia suggested. "That's beautiful. I wish someone would make me so happy that I would be nervous." Olivia gushed.

"What about Finn? You didn't feel this way around him?"

I considered for a moment, thinking back to the times we had hung out. "Well, I definitely felt something when we hugged in the car, but it was almost nothing compared to how I felt in the bowling alley with Asher. We had fun together when Finn came over, but I felt like I was trying too hard to keep myself away from him and he was trying too hard to get closer. With Asher, it's like he wasn't even trying to get closer to me, but we did somehow. It's like we just gravitate towards each other."

Neither of my sisters answered me directly after that, but Olivia looked into the distance with gleaming eyes, probably imagining what it's like to feel what I just described. Sophia was looking at the ground, a slight smirk on her face.

"Well? Is anyone going to answer me? Tell me what to do?" I asked. They both looked at me. "Sadie, really, come on." Olivia scoffed. I looked at Sophia, confused. She sighed and said "Don't you see it, Sadie? You basically just said it yourself, practically told us!"

I shook my head. "Enough with the games guys just tell me what you're thinking." I begged. They looked at each other, then back at me.

"You like Asher!" They yelled, like it was the most obvious answer in the world.

Could it be? Could I have figured out my feelings after just a few hang out sessions with Finn and Asher? I had been kind of crushing on him ever since I saw him at the Pretzel Shop, but now I really know him. This time my crush could be a real, feasible thing. Then I had a sudden rush of fear overcome me.

"What if I do?"

My sisters looked confused.

"I mean, what if I really do like him? What should I do next? What if he doesn't like me back, and-"

Olivia cut me off. "He TOTALLY likes you, Sadie. We can tell just from how you described him."

"How can you tell?"

"The way you looked at each other. He sang and danced for you. Not many boys would publicly humiliate themselves just to amuse a girl. When he almost grabbed your hand until you pulled away. How he confides in you and how you both feel comfortable around each other. It's all right there." Sophia added.

Looking back on it now, I can see what they mean. In the moment it just felt like two new friends getting to know each other and having fun together, but the way my sisters are pointing things out now makes so much sense. I almost didn't want to admit that I thought they were right.

I mean, what if they are right? What if he likes me back, what do I do then? "Okay, say he does like me. What am I supposed to do about it?"

"Tell him!" Olivia commanded. "What if he doesn't, though? What if he was just being friendly or something? I'll be rejected!" Olivia rolled her eyes and shook her head. "Did you not hear a thing we just said? Sadie, we don't even know this kid, but we are absolutely certain he likes you." She assured me.