Lost Love

Chapter 1

Leaving Manchester City is the best thing I could've done. Leaving Lucy behind is the best thing I've done. I do of course miss Chloe and Keira, but I know to get away from her is what was need. The hurt, the pain that she caused me, is still slowly hitting me. There are times I want to stand at her door at midnight, spend every ounce of time with her until we both physically cant stay awake anymore but the times that I feel complete hatred for her overpowers everything. I know never seeing her face everyday will hurt, but it's what I need.

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My phone starts to vibrate. Jonas was ringing me. "As before, we have discussed your transfer over to Arsenal. We have finalised the details, a 3 year contract. How does that sound?", Jonas asked, sounding excited. "It's great, thank you for this opportunity," I said, covering any traces of worry, "I can't wait to get started!" "Training starts at 11am on Monday, we will get you down earlier though for media and signing, so let's aim for 9am okay?" Anxiety builds up inside me hearing this, "That's perfect, I'll see you at 9." A quick exchange of goodbyes we're given as I began to get nervous. 'Will the team even like me?, I thought to myself. Have they heard about me and Lucy? Most of them are friends with Lucy, so what if i'm left alone?' Arsenal will be my new home. It'll have to be, I thought to myself, as I have given up all hope of finding somewhere I fit in.

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The decision to go to Arsenal was the hardest one I've made. My dad is a big Tottenham supporter. I lost call contact with my family after I came out as gay. So I don't know if I picked Arsenal out of spite or I had no other choice. I start to get ready to sleep, the travel is only 20 minutes away but i'm not taking any chances. I have to make the best impression possible.

*Its a slow start i'm sorry but it heats up end of c2😭😭*