Lost Love

Chapter 7

I sat crying the rest of the night. This is one of the hardest decisions I will have to make. I wish I could just go back in time and never have joined Arsenal. I found myself calling someone. "Keira.." "Holly, i've missed you so much. How have you been?" The tears are still rolling down my face, "I've been better. I need your advice." I got into explaining my situation with both Lucy and Leah, the pros and cons of both relationships. "I'm just confused Keira. I don't know what to do." "Look Holly, Lucy may have hurt you but she maybe has changed. But Leah would be a fresh, new start, a new beginning." Keira knew exactly what to say to me. I knew she would help. "Thanks Keira, you've been a big help. How's everything with you?" "I've not been too bad. You remember Georgia? Well things grew from there and we're taking things slow right now but it's going so well." "I'm so happy for you, i'm so glad your happy", I said. Keira always brought a smile to my face. "I'm going to take your advice and sort this mess out. Thanks Ke."

Straight after the phone ended I texted Lucy. It read; 'Hi Lucy. Any chance you could come over to talk?' She replied 3 hours later. In this time, I checked twitter, just scrolling to pass time. I come across a video of Lucy kissing a girl. This hurt more than I thought it ever would. She texted me in the early hours of the morning. I ignored the text, and went to sleep. 'Fuck her. She doesn't change.'

I woke up to a knock at my door. Lucy opened the door, looking worse for wear. "Hi Holl, you wanted to talk?" "I did yes but I don't think it matters anymore." I was still hurt from last night and the anger was building up inside me. Lucy placed herself at the end of my bed. "Look Lucy. I'm going to come out and say it. I saw the video of you kissing that girl in the bar." "Holly I swear it was just one random kiss. It meant nothing to me at all I swear." These words proved to me she will never change. "I don't want you anymore. I'm done with any future relationship there might be. You will never change, and it's not my responsibility to fix you. You've broke my heart more in the past 2 years than anyone could ever hurt me. I can't put myself through it. I'm sorry but this is me letting you go. I want you to move on and find someone." Lucy started crying, but she nodded. "Your right Holl. I want to apologise for the last two years and for last night. I love you, I always will, but I do also have to let you go. We stay friends though?" "Of course we can Luce" We exchanged a big hug while I wiped her tears away. "You look after yourself for me won't you?" I said, with tears in my own eyes now. "I will. I'll see you later yeah?" "Yes Lucy you will" Lucy got off my bed and gave me a little wave before she walked out. Seeing her walk out of my room made me cry harder.

I texted Beth. 'Can you come in?' Beth burst through the door in a few seconds, saw me crying and gave me a hug. "What's up little one?" "I did it. I sorted everything." Beth had a little smile on her face, "Lucy or Leah?", she said, already knowing the answer. "Don't make me say it idiot." She sat and stared at me. "Okay then. Leah." She hugged me even tighter. "Right you ready to talk to her?" "I think so." Beth sprinted out the room, and came back with Leah. "I heard you wanted to talk Holl?" "Yes I do. Can you sit down?" I started to fidget, hoping she still feels the same way towards me. "Leah. There's no one else. It's just you. I really like you, I picture my future with you." Leah sat on the bed, with a big grin on her face. "I like you too Holl. It's only ever been you." We hugged for what seemed eternity. 'This is my happy place. She is my happy place,' I thought to myself. "We take it slow yes?" I smiled at Leah saying this, knowing I made the right decision. "Yes please Le." We hugged even more, before Leah pulled away and looked at me. "Your beautiful you know." Her head moved closer to mine, looking at my eyes, then my lips. I lent in and we shared a gentle, passionate kiss. The connection I felt with Leah was unmatched to everyone else. We sat and hugged for hours, until we had to head to training.

Leah drove us both to training, her hand on my thigh the whole duration of the drive. Her face looked like she had a question. "Holl?" "Yes Le?" I was worried she took her decision back already. "What about Lucy?" "I never told you this but Lucy and I were together for 2 years. We had a good relationship until she cheated on me twice. She came to Arsenal to try restart things. This morning I told her I only wanted to be friends. She respected that a lot so you have nothing to worry about." Leah's face lit up. "You know i'll treat you right, I'd never cheat." "I know you would never Le." This felt right. Leah felt right. I knew this is the person I've been waiting for, the angel that I needed to walk into my life.