Mystic Falls Loner Club - A Vampire Diaries Fic

Chapter 11: Blame

When I come to, I smell the familiar fragrances of sweet-smelling candles, mixed with incense and sage. I blink a few times and see Grams tidying up in the corner of my room. "Hey Grams. Geez, I haven't been in here in ages." She turns and replies, "I know. But you need rest child. Lay back down." I prop a few pillows behind my neck before I collapse back into the bed.

"How long was I out?" I groan, rubbing my eyes. "A few hours. I managed to stitch up your neck. That vampire would've killed you if he didn't stop when he did." I turn my head and say, "The what would've killed me?!" "The vampire, KJ. Don't think I don't know about the supernatural events that go on in this town." I scrunch my eyebrows together and she finally turns from dusting a bookshelf and sits on the end of my bed.

"There's a lot your father hasn't told you about your mother's side of the family. She was a witch and so are you." I press my lips together and move my eyes back and forth across the comforter as my mind starts to spin. "If I'm a witch then how did I manage to almost kill myself last year? What about accidentally setting people on fire or breaking my phone when the notifications are getting on my nerves?" Grams nods understandingly and places her hand on my arm.

"You weren't awoken. You were unaware of your magic potential. Your life wasn't protected at the time because you weren't a supernatural being. Now that you've made it to Mystic Falls, that magic in you has awoken." I shake my head and run my tongue over my top row of teeth.

"W- why didn't anyone tell me this? Was it always planned to keep it secret or were you just going to let me figure it out on my own?" Grams brushes one of my curls from my forehead. "Child, you were never supposed to be here in Mystic Falls. Your mother did everything she could to keep you from here. Your father sent you here as a last result because he didn't know what else to do and he was terrified."

"He was terrified because his only daughter tried to kill herself because she was too busy pleasing everyone else. I'm tired of people talking about how scared everyone was for me. I'm still here and I'm fine." Grams' hand covers mine and I realize the windows burst open and the wind was blowing leaves into my room. I take a deep breath and focus on floating the leaves back out of the window.

After my room is clean, Grams smiles and says, "See KJ, you're gonna be just fine." I smile and feel her knuckles brush against my cheek. "Damon!" I exclaim. Before thinking, I grab my sneakers from my the front door and throw on a sweater hanging by the door. In record time, the car hook slides into the Salvatore driveway and I slam the door behind me, racing to the door.

I frantically knock at the door until it swings open and Stefan is standing casually, not looking too down. "Damon." I huff. "Where's Damon?" He moves from the door frame and I kick out of my shoes, making it down the hall to his room. He's lying in bed, not looking like he's in the best shape ever but also not staked through the heart.

"Look who's back to doing witchy things." He teases, sitting up against the pillows. "You idiot! Why would you lock me in your car?! I could've helped you!" Damon's arms are laying in his lap and I move his unbuttoned shirt. His torso is covered in dark bruises. "It looks a lot better than it did before, I swear." I press my lips together and run my hands along his chest.

"Damn it, why are you so hard headed?" I mumble, turning my head and fixing his shirt. "Because it's who I am, KJ. And it's my fault you were with Enzo in the first place. I should have told you about him but he was a ghost from my past. I never thought he'd be able to come back and bite me in the ass." I cross my legs under me as I readjust myself to sit on the bed.

"He could've killed me but he didn't. He wanted you to suffer. He thought the way to do that was through me." Damon sighs and throws his head back into the pillow. "It did. I never wanted you to get hurt because everyone that knows me gets hurt. That's why I try not to talk to you in public or make anything seem obvious between us."

As Damon talks, I see the pain flash across his face as he thinks about what he's saying. I want to ask him how we knew each other in Boston but the timing doesn't feel right. "Damon, I'm fine." I put my hand up to my neck and show him that it's completely healed. "I think Grams did a spell while I was resting. I'm going to be okay."

He throws his body up from the bed and is suddenly by the door. "Everything isn't okay though. You were hurt because of me. If you didn't know me and we weren't friends, if I wasn't drinking your blood ..." With that I see a lightbulb go off over Damon's head. My eyebrows raise and I get off the bed and force his face down to look me in the eye.

"No Damon. I'm not letting you go back to feeding on random people. It's safer for me to do it, especially now that I know I'm a witch. I can keep scars away and I know that you won't flip your humanity switch and there's no chance of you becoming a ripper."

His hands move up to hold mine harder against his face as his eyes close. He takes a deep breath and I say one more thing. "It's not your fault. Enzo is a vengeful sociopath that couldn't let go of the past. I don't blame you for what happened. I'm fine, I promise."

Damon's eyes open and he looks down at me. "KJ, you should go." I press my lips together and nod. I bite my lower lip as I make my way out of Damon's room and I turn to look at him one more time. "Just go." I walk down the hall and I see Stefan standing in the living room, drinking a glass of whiskey. "I'll see you later Stefan." Before I can walk out of the door, Stefan is standing in front of me with his hand on my shoulder. "KJ, Damon's hurting. And when he's hurt, he pushes everyone away, even me. Just give him time."

I nod and mumble a small, 'M'kay' as I slip into my sneakers and walk out the door. When I get to the car, I take a deep breath as I sit behind the wheel before pulling out of the driveway.