I won't give up (Completed)

Chapter 18.

Maya's POV 

Everyone was doing something to prepare for the first night at camp. Suga was making dinner and Jin was making the fire. Jungkook and Jimin were putting up the tent and Hoseok, Namjoon and I were organizing the van. While Taehyung was looking for some water so Suga could cook better. 

I was trying to get something from the bunker above which was difficult because I'm very small, I can't really reach it. "Here, let me help." Namjoon said as he helped me reach it and I thanked him, however, the box that we were trying to reach, fell down, causing us to fall down too. I was on top of Namjoon and we couldn't stop laughing. 

Although I felt like dying from embarrassment, I can't deny that it was funny. Hoseok was laughing too, until someone came inside the van. It was Jungkook, he looked surprised at the position we were in, making me feel more embarrassed. "Sorry-" I said and laughed again as I tried to stand up but failed, because the space was very reduced and fell on top of RM once again. 

"Stop omg" Hoseok said as he couldn't stop laughing and held his stomach as he couldn't breathe. 

"Here" Jungkook said as he managed to help me stand up and Namjoon somehow also helped me too. 

"That's the funniest thing that has happened in months." Hoseok said as he finally calmed down and we were all still laughing, however, Jungkook was not really laughing. He was pretending to laugh but I know his real laugh and that was not it. 

"What were you trying to do anyway?" He asked as Namjoon composed himself and I was able to maintain balance again. 

"I wanted to reach the box but failed since I'm small, so Namjoon helped me reach it but it fell down on us." Jungkook just nodded and looked at us one last time before heading out the van again. Which made me wonder what he was going to do here in the first place. 

"I think Jungkookie is jealous." Hoseok commented, making me raise an eyebrow. However, I saw Namjoon agreeing with him which made him laugh again. 

"I've never seen him jealous before." Namjoon said, as the three of us resumed what we were doing, but I couldn't help but wonder what they were talking about. 

It's impossible. He doesn't like me, why would he be jealous? He made it pretty clear in the past that he will never like me that way. 

*Flashback*

"I think we should stop seeing each other." Jungkook told me as he looked down at the ground. He couldn't even see my face. 

Looking at him in disbelief and in heartbreak, I tried to fight back my tears. I won't let him see me cry because of him. "Not even text?" I ask him, I needed to make sure I understood what he meant. 

"We need to stop this." He said again.

"Stop what exactly?" 

"This, we can't be friends anymore Maya." Jungkook finally said, and he then looked at me. I hope I'm able to express my feelings so he feels bad. He has no idea how much this hurts. 

"W-What about the others?" I asked him, "Does this means that I can't hang out with them either?" 

I saw Jungkook thinking for a second, trying to read me. Maybe he wanted to know what I was feeling, but if this is what he wants, I won't be able to change his mind. 

"You know I'm always with them... so I guess you won't be able to see them either." He said, as he paused and tried to give me a hug, but I can't. I can't do this right now. 

Backing up I look at him in disbelief. "Are you sure about this?" I asked him again, because I can't believe this is happening. "What happened to 'I won't give up'?" 

As I said that sentence, my voice broke. I knew I wouldn't be able to hold it together if I stayed there any longer. So as I saw that he wouldn't answer me, with my heart in my hands, I ran away. 

*End of flashback*

"Hey, Maya? You good?" I snapped out of the flashback as Hoseok made me come back to the present. I saw that Namjoon was no longer in the van, making me wonder how long I've been out of it. 

"Yeah- yeah sorry." I replied and he looked at me confused. 

"You know you can't lie to me." He said, as he stopped me from leaving the van. "I think you've been having something on your mind and you need to talk about it." 

Looking at Hoseok's eyes I knew I couldn't say no to him. He knows me too well. He has always known me the best. 

Sitting down besides him on the bed inside the van, I sigh as I tried to gather my thoughts. "I-I still like Jungkook." I told him as I was being completely honest. 

He smiled sadly at me "You never stopped liking him, did you?" I shook my head as I felt a single tear stream down my face. "I think he likes you back Maya." 

"Don't tell me that when it's not true Hobi." I said as I was even getting a bit angry. I'm not sure if he knows what happened that day, maybe Jungkook never told anyone, but I'm sure at least he can imagine something bad happened. "He doesn't like me, he made it pretty clear." 

"Wait... is that why you stopped talking to us?" He asked me and I looked at him surprised. Are you telling me he actually doesn't know? 

"Didn't Jungkook told you?" I asked him and he shook his head. "He didn't told you what he told me?" 

"What did he told you exactly? Back then." Hoseok asked. 

I'm not sure if I should tell him, but I know he wants to know. "I don't think it's my place to tell that story." 

"Of course it is. It revolved around you Maya. It happened a long time ago, so I'm sure it's fine if you tell me now." 

Looking out at the small window were we could see the others still preparing everything I look back at Hoseok and told him. 

"He told me that I had to stop talking to all of you because he didn't like me back... because we couldn't be friends anymore, so he told me to stop any sort of communication I may be able to have with him. That was including you." I said, as I finally felt tears fall down my face. I've been holding in that moment forever. I couldn't tell Tori, because by that time she also ended things with Taehyung and she didn't want to know anything that was happening with them. 

"Are you serious?" He asked me. "He truly made you stop talking to us because of him?" 

He was in total disbelief, like I was that day. I nodded confirming his thoughts as I saw how he looking down at his hands, "I should have tried to reach you back then... but I truly thought that you didn't want to talk to me anymore." He said to me, making me looking at him with sadness in my eyes. 

"It wasn't your fault Hobi..." I said as I hugged him. He hugged me back, and I could tell he was feeling sorry. 

"I should've tried harder to stay in touch with you." 

"It's fine... really, you didn't know." 

"I'm glad we are back at being friends... although I hope you know you've always been on my mind." I smile at him as we separated from the hug. 

"You've always been on my mind too Hobi." 

I'm so happy to be here, with them again.