I won't give up (Completed)

Chapter 4.

*Present time*

Maya was wondering when will someone ever tell her why some people come and go into her life? What's the purpose of knowing people if they will just suddenly disappear? How many more heartbreaks can her heart take by losing the friendships that she most adores? 

"I'm so glad you are here! I can't believe I forgot you were coming!" Victoria said as she hugged the life out of Maya since she just scared the crap out of her. 

Coming back to the present moment, Maya hugged Victoria just as hard, laughing while watching her reaction. She came to visit her for the whole month, she just missed her too much and she needed her best friend. 

"Surprise!" Maya said again as she laughed. It was honestly the best reaction. She expected nothing less from Victoria. 

"How are you? Oh my gosh I'm so excited! I knew you were coming but I totally forgot that it was today! I was about to text you to ask you when you were coming!" 

Maya shook her head as they finally separated from the hug, "I'm fine I'm fine." Maya answered as she sat down on the floor, with her back against Victoria's bed. She always sat on the floor. It was better that way, she loved the floor. 

"Really? You looked deep in thought for a moment there." If there was anyone in the whole world who knew Maya more than anything else, it was Tori. You could say they were connected somehow by the universe. 

"Eh it's nothing really. Tell me how have you been!" Maya said as she never really liked talking about herself. 

Tori looked at her with suspicious eyes but shrugged her shoulders 'I'm gonna slide it for now' she thought as she answered Maya's question. "I'm great. I have so much work though." She sighs as she sat back down on her desk, with her computer. She hated having to work while Maya was there but she didn't had a choice and Maya knew that so it was fine. 

"I'll make you some company then." Maya said and Tori smiled at her as she began to do some of the work quickly so she could spend time with her best friend. 

Meanwhile, another flashback came to Maya's head. She has had so many flashbacks since she met with Jungkook yesterday that it was driving her crazy. 

*Flashback*

I'm scared Jungkook. 

Maya texted him the night before her surgery. She couldn't sleep, and although they haven't been speaking the same way since that awful day that she confessed her feelings for him, they tried not to stop talking. They tried to talk at least once a week and when Maya got the news that she needed surgery, she knew she needed Jungkook. She needed to know that he would stay with her, even if it was from afar. 

Everything will be fine, don't worry. 

How do you know? What if it won't? 

Maya, you are strong, stronger than you'll ever know, you'll be fine. 

'I hope he's right'. Maya thought. 'He better be right because I'm way too young to die.' 

Maya began to think about all the people that would worry if not everything went alright in tomorrow's surgery. She felt guilty thinking that way, but she couldn't help it. 

Will people miss her if something went wrong? Will her friends think of her often in their trip to Europe which she couldn't go to because of this surgery? 

The only people that made her hurt more if anything did happen, was her family. She was scared that if something wrong did happen, her family wouldn't be okay without her. Not because she was the glue to her family, but because she is the youngest one. 

Stop overthinking Maya, I know you and I know that you are thinking too much right now. Just try to sleep, think of happy thoughts, yeah? 

She smiled at the text and couldn't help but fall more in love with Jungkook. How can he do this to her? How is she ever going to get over him if he's so sweet? 

It would all be better if he was mean to her. 

Thank you Jk... I hope you sleep well. 

He left her on seen, but that still didn't bother her. Because she knew he was probably fast asleep by now. 

She took out her headphones and decided to put some music so she could relax and maybe sleep. 

'Demons' came to her ears and she smiled as it reminded her of how strong she truly is. She can do this, she will make it through. 

*** 

*He's thoughts on the flashback that Maya never knew about*

Jungkook's POV

I hope she will really makes it through. I know that I didn't answer that last texts but it was because I just didn't know what else to tell her that time. 

I'm worried and I can't deny that. 

Tomorrow is Maya's surgery. 

I know, are you okay? 

No, I can't sleep. I'm worried about her. 

She's strong Jungkook. 

I know, but what if something goes wrong? 

I'll tell you. But nothing will go wrong. 

How can you be so sure? 

C'mon, have a little bit of faith in her. 

I have faith in her, I just don't have faith in the doctor. 

He's the best doctor of scoliosis out there, she's in good hands. 

I know Hoseok is right, but thoughts came to me and I began to regret ever not feeling the same way towards her. 

What can I do if my heart is confused? I have no idea how I'm feeling and I can't lie to her just to please her. That would break her more. 

I had to be straight forward with her. I had to tell her that I didn't feel the same way. And I knew I fucked up but I still feel like I didn't have a choice. 

I couldn't make her feel like she had a chance when I don't know myself. 

Gosh I hope she'll be alright tomorrow.