Cigarette under moonlight (bxb)

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Hey! Who am I even saying hey to? No one even reads this lol(that's sad 😔✊) this chapter is from Kanishk's Pov.
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I can't believe Aarav would ditch me for Nikum! Why could he? He chose his boyfriend over me! His best friend/ crime partner/ lover? Huh, people nowadays. I guess I have to go to buy coffee alone today. Just how difficult it is for him to walk for half an hour to my house and assist me to buy coffee then go home straight away, or as may you say gay away, easy right? But he told me I was being unreasonable. And as I don't have any more friends, well I do but I only like Aarav so. Dev couldn't come either as he was in his "meeting", yeah like I care.

I decide to go to Starbucks cause I like to waste my bucks, man sometimes I even amaze myself too with my extreme sense of humour. As I'm in a not good mood I will take a stroll to have some peace of mind. It's exceptionally cold today, it's December so it will be cold but even after wearing a hoodie I feel cold, maybe I need a human to hug me. That can't happen, sigh. After debating on whether I should wear a coat or not, I decide I probably should.

I wish it snowed here, it would be so cool. Maybe I should go to Kashmir, yeah let's ask Aarav. Or maybe not, that traitor will betray me again for Nikum. Ah, I guess it is hoes before bros. Okay then, one-step, boom boom, two-step boom boom, three-step, boom boo- oh no!
No no no, is that? No! Wait why am I anxious, ha! No need to be nervous, just go in, buy coffee, and come out. Three steps, easy peasy.

I start to walk fast so somehow he wouldn't see me, I don't know why I feel nervous. I quickly go inside and thankfully no one is at the counter, I say what I need and ask them to make it quick. As I turn around there he is, just behind me. He looks up from his phone and is surprised, I assume, which turns into a smile. Cute cute cute cute, control nick.

" Ivaan! Hi", my voice comes out in an annoying high pitch, clearing my throat I attempt to greet him normally. Ivaan makes me feel confused. That's it. I won't say much.

"Hello", he sounds so much calmer than I am, " I will order my drink as that guy is not giving me nice looks", he goes to order one large- something, I was too busy straightening my hoodie for some reason that I didn't hear what he said.

"Kanishk?", he calls out my name in such a soft way. Once I asked him to call my name in Bengali and he did, it sounded the same so I asked him why he didn't say my name in Bengali as it should have sounded like " konishk", he looked at Aarav and started to laugh.

"Yeah"

"I asked how are you?", oh shit where is my mind? Just smile and nod ig? Breath, why are you so nervous?

"Oh, sorry I'm good, how are you?", I pronounced each word carefully which now I realise sounded strange but it's been done. Let's just go with the flow. I wish Aarav was with me, but that idiot is probably making out with Nikum. On second thought I wouldn't mind that either. Nikum's straight-up Daddy material. And we all know about Aarav's daddy issues, more like his family issues. That guy needs therapy.

Ivaan tells me that he is fine and we move towards a window seat table and sit there. We both are silent for a while which is very awkward and when I'm in an awkward situation I tend to ask people extremely weird questions. Luckily he speaks before I can.

"So, where's Aarav?", he looks at me when he speaks, usually I'm not shy about making eye contact, but right now it's taking everything in me to do that. Without thinking, I say he's with Nikum then realise that people don't know about his relationship with Aarav and slap my mouth.

"Don't worry, I know about Nikum", he reassuringly smiled at me. I thought I fucked up, wait a minute-

"How do you know about him?"

"Oh, Aarav told me about him", he says with a smile. Look I don't know what to say but that is a hella cute smile. The counter person calls out our name, and we collect our drinks and head out. Before I can ask if he is Aarav's new bestie he speaks. "Aarav and I are friends but im not stealing him away, you will be his top best friend", again he smiles.

"Oh I wasn't thinking about it at all", my fake-ass laugh makes sure that I was thinking about it. We walk in silence for a bit but this time it's not awkward. He asks me if I want to sit for a bit and I agree. We go to the nearby garden and sit there. He looks relaxed and the resting sunlight falls on his face making him look ethereal. I take out my phone and take his picture.

"Why did you do that for?" He asks, his cheeks turning a bit red. He quickly covers it with his hand and I can't help but laugh.

"Well, I like to take pictures of pretty things."

"Y-you think I'm pretty?", he peeks through his fingers to make sure whether I'm joking or not. Good for him that im not. I nod and he hides his face in his lap. I take a picture of that too. Now that is going to be my new lock screen.

After five minutes of full silence and my inner panic, he looks up, biting his lips.

"Can I ask you something?" He says, he looks a bit nervous. I clear my throat and say yes. After a few minutes of hesitation, he finally speaks, "are you dating anyone at the moment?" He laughs nervously after saying that and then quickly adds, "you don't have to tell me if you don't want." But I want to tell him. He needs to know.

"It's fine, and no im not dating anyone, are you?"

"Nope"

"So", I make eye contact with him, trust me that took guts, " do I perhaps have any chance with you then?", as soon I say that I regret it, I don't know if he likes guys or not. This could turn into something very ugly but a part of me says that it's gonna be okay. I should run away but my legs can't move. He is not saying anything only staring at me.

"Sorry", I say and quickly stand up, " forget I said anything, um I gotta go now,   see you later." I turn around ready to sprint away from there.

Shit shit shit. I don't know why I said that. I've kinda had a crush on him for a long while now but saying that in front of him ruined everything. Now he might think of me as some weird freak. I need to go to Aarav. I wish he was here with me.

"Kanishk", I hear Ivaan's voice calling me, no God no, I can't deal with his hurtful words right now. I turn around my eyes closed. I take a deep breath and open them, ready to take in whatever he says.

"I'm so sorry for not saying anything, I was just really surprised I did not expect that, um I uh I don't know, I always liked you and I never expected you to say that. Well to answer your question, you do have a chance. And I'm sorry if you thought I was gonna hate you or anything", he says all that in one breath.

I take a moment to process what he said. Okay, well now I'm speechless.

"Um", I still don't know what to say, " I would- I mean I don't know, thank you?", he laughs, he's nervous too.

"Should we take a walk?" He asks. Yeah, that seems like a good thing.

"Yes, let's do that.", Perhaps during the walk ill build up some courage and hold his hand. Let's pray for me.

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A/N

I don't know what this chapter is. I wanted to write something else but idk I kinda messed up. I'm messed up so T-T
Hope you like it if anyone reads😭