les sequelles - Cillian Murphy & Thomas Shelby

33. Anxious Darling

Summary: Sometimes you just can't shake the anxiety.

Warnings: Anxiety/Panic Attacks. Fluffly!Cillian

Pairing: Cillian Murphy x Fem!Reader

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You threw your head back in frustration, the dark room was irritating you to no end, the fact you couldn't sleep was making everything worse.

The light snores of the man beside you were really getting to you, you tapped your phone screen 02:09 taunted you.

"whats wrong darling?" Cillian's voice was covered in sleep, raising from the pillows.

"just everything" you mumbled, you could feel the jittery buzz of your body as it all washed over you.

You slipped from the bed, feet hitting the soft carpet of the bedroom, you shuffled to the en suite, flicking the light on before closing the door.

You starred at yourself in the mirror, the dark circles, the dry bitten lips, your hair resembled a birds nest, you felt your lip wobble as the first hot tears left your bloodshot eyes.

Cillian pushed the door open squinting at the lights as he adjusted his eyes to it.

"y/n, darling?" he whispered as he moved towards you sat on the edge of the bath, body shaking with sobs, legs knocking up and down, hands tightly pulled in your hair.

"c'mere, c'mere" he soothed pulling your body into him, slowly moving your hands from your hair, lifting you into his arms, his warm chest against your burning body.

Cillian sat on the bed, your body curled into him as you clung onto his arm, face nuzzled into his chest as you softly sobbed

"shush, shush its all ok, i know you don't like being told that but it will be, I'm here, I'm here" his nose knocked the shell of your ear as he whispered to you, dropping a small kiss to the side of your cheek.

You looked up at him eyes bloodshot and frantic "it won't be Cill, it's not going to get easier" you were hectic your head buzzing, your mind in over drive

"it will be easier so much easier tomorrow is a new day and then tomorrow will end and it's another day" he was holding you tight, pulling the duvet up over your bodies, pressing butterfly kisses to your temple, your nose any place.

You looked away eyes down cast as you thought "if you want to leave me that's fine" you mumbled against his chest.

Cillian moved slightly so he could get a good look at you, lifting your chin up with his index finger.

"hey who said I wanted to leave?" he questioned softly, you bit at your lip, shaking your head slightly

"no..no one but you can if you want" you huffed out a breath as he shook his head kissing you softly

"i don't ever want to leave" he bundled you back into his chest, your body was starting to calm its anxious movement, you finally let out a yawn.

Cillian moved you both, so you were fitted tight against his side, head on his chest, fingers absently tangling in his chest hair, he kissed the top of your head.

"sleep baby, i'll stay awake until you do" his fingers were brushing through the ends of your hair, you finally let your eyes close, your body relaxing with a sigh against him.

"hey Cill, you know love you right?" you asked, he let out a small laugh "always darling, you know I love you right?"

You nodded a light giggle leaving your lips, music to his ears.

"always Cill" you snuggled into his body and finally let sleep take over.

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From peakyscillian on Tumblr.