les sequelles - Cillian Murphy & Thomas Shelby

14. Needy

Needy | Cillian x Fem!Reader|

Summary: Being younger than Cillian means you can get petty & jealous, maybe you're just a tiny bit needy as well. 

Warning: Language, smut.

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Cillian could hear her coming down the hall she was on the phone to her sister, he had just got back from dinner with his ex-wife and two sons, sorting out some school meetings they had coming up, he knew he should have left earlier than he did, but his boys were loving the fact he was there on a weeknight.

She entered the kitchen, ending her call without looking at him, grabbing a wine glass from the cupboard, the chilled bottle of white wine from the fridge, Cillian was leaning against the side watching her, she was trying her best to ignore him. 

 "Did you fuck her?" she asked bluntly, placing the wine back into the fridge without even offering him some. 

 Cillian took a deep breath, they hadn't had a conversation like this for months, dragging his hand over his face he shook his head. 

 "No, I didn't fuck her" he sighed, trying to step closer to her. 

 She moved away "any chance you get, you'd be with her over me"

Cillian wasn't sure he could deal with this again, when she got like this she was impossible to reason with, she knew that he had separated from Tina before he even started anything with her, she knew he'd never cheated on his now ex-wife, yet she had moments like this when she just couldn't help herself.

"How many chances have I had eh? and how many have I took?" he knew how harsh that would sound, the look on her face told him as much. 

 She placed her wine glass on the side, with more force than intended slopping wine onto the kitchen tiles "Fuck you Cillian" she hissed ready to walk out of the kitchen.

 Cillian reached forward lightly gripping her waist, pulling her into him "why do you do this, huh?" he was resting his chin on top of her head. 

 "I just get worried" she muttered, fingers playing with the buttons on his shirt, he sighed softly "baby, look at me please" 

 Cillian held her at arms length as she finally made eye contact with him, her eyes rimmed with unshed tears "I love you, okay? I only want you, theres no one else in this world that I would want to be with and I just wish you would remember that" 

 Her gaze dropped to the floor, she knew she was being petty and jealous but she couldn't bare the thought of losing him. 

 "I was just getting so caught up thinking you want to go back to her and the boys and be a family again, I'm half your age" she was biting her lip.

Cillian lifted her onto the kitchen side, cupping her face in is hand "never, I love my boys and I love the little family we have when they're here with us, I don't want it anyother way, fuck the age thing fuck what people say, I need you, I want you, did I not put a ring on your finger just a few weeks ago?" he pressed his lips to her. 

 She nodded slowly as she melted into his kiss, feeling all her worries wash away, his hands were pushing up under the loose t-shirt she had on, hands finding her bare breasts, tweaking her nipples making her gasp into his mouth. 

 Cillian tugged her top over her head, hands running down to rest on her waist "you're so fucking beautiful, I should be worried about you leaving me" his lips fell to her neck, nipping at the skin. 

 She was skillfully unbuttoning his shirt pushing it back from his shoulders. 

 "no never, you're stuck with me if you'll still have me" she mumbled as his lips carried on their assault on her neck.