Jokers

41

Tw: Panic Attack.

Leo's Pov:

Dinner finished quite quickly. Desserts were bought out a little while after to which Venus demanded more of. 

Paris called her a pig and she hurled he knife at him while screaming something about "Cali isn't the only one who can stab you, little shit." 

Mirae then had a go at Venus for swearing. 

Cardan decided to then join in and pathetically chucked a fork at Venus. It landed a good 2 foot away from her even though he was only 1 foot away from her. 

Venus found this extremely amusing and so did Paris, Keiji, Rhian and Cali. 

It basically ended with Cardan storming of to his room with Keiji trying  to calm him down. 

After that Venus shamelessly asked Rhian if he could get her a copy of the new game that his company was going to release in 2 months time. 

To which Rhian said he had 'already seen this coming' and had bought one for her and Cardan. 

Mirae then decided that she 'needed her beauty sleep' and dragged Rhian away. Lyra excused herself a little while later leaving Elian with no one to talk to. 

Venus by this time had disappeared somewhere with Aria. 

That just left Paris, Cali, Elian, Chase and I. I left before all of them so who left next wasn't known to me. 

 It had been a long day and after 2 fucking hours of feeling tired but unable to sleep I decided to go to the balcony.

That's when it happened. 

The corridor to my room looked unusually long but just as dark as it always was. I passed my room door briefly looking at it before I continued. 

I knew it was coming before I even reached it. Her room. That crazy beautiful looking woman's room. 

I stopped at her door. 

Something inside of me wanted to knock on the door. I swallowed and pushed the feeling down and sighed. What the hell was I thinking. 

Just as I started to continue down I heard a soft cry. 

"Stop!" 

It was coming from inside her room. 

"Stop it!" The voice came again 

I lost all sensibility and that same urge to open the door resurfaced but instead I didn't knock i opened the door. 

There was just something about her voice that made me act before I thought. 

I burst into the room to find her on the floor shaking. 

She was slumped against the bed but she was shaking uncontrollably her hands covering her face as she kept on repeating the words. 

"Stop." and "Sorry." 

Again 

And again. 

She was having a panic attack. Mirae had a couple of these due to her ex boyfriend and she would cry for a long time while all we could do was comfort her. 

Panic attacks happen when people remember a certain memory that scare them so much that they believe they are in that moment they are thinking about. 

I looked down at her shaking and something in my chest felt like it was hurting. Just what the hell had this woman done to me. 

I knew that if I left her here like this then that would be the biggest regret in my entire life. I knelt down next to her and placed a hand on her arm. 

She flinched and finally uncovered her hand from her face and looked at me hazily. 

"You.....ok?" I asked her. 

Tears slipped from her green eyes. Her eyes were slowly closing. 

I never knew just how pretty green eyes could be until I looked at hers. Then suddenly those gorgeous eyes closed and she slumped forwards into my arms. 

She'd passed out. Fainted. Gone unconscious. 

Immediately i drew her closer into my arms trying to wake her up, I held her face and gently shook her.

"God you stupid woman. Wake the fuck up." I urgently tried. 

Nothing she was out cold.

I picked her up in my arms and slowly made my way over to  her bed and drew the covers back. Her body felt so warm in my hands. 

When I put her in her bed my arms felt empty. fuck that. I felt empty. 

I pulled the covers on her and shifted her pillow to the side slightly to which she stirred slightly. Oh fuck. I thought she was unconscious. 

Looking at her sleeping so peacefully after seeing her before felt relieving. Like she was doing ok now. 

I stopped. I looked away from her. I needed to get my shit together. What on earth was I doing? There was no way that i actually cared for this crazy woman. No fucking way. 

I cant care for her. 

I cant care for anyone. 

When I do things go wrong. 

So I refuse, I refuse to believe that this crazy lady is a person that I care for. 

I sighed. After today I wasn't going to pay her another thought, forget thought I wasn't even even going to look at her, speak with her. Or anything.

I turned to leave when a hand touched mine. 

The feeling of that hand on mine made me forget how to breathe. I swallowed. 

I turned back and looked down at her had that was lightly holding mine. Her green fiery eyes found mine and she mumbled 3 words that broke me. 

Shattered my brain making it into a mush. 

"Please don't go."  She mumbled. 

I was gone. All sensibility gone. All I saw was her. All I could hear was her. It was just her. 

That wasn't what scared me the most though. 

It was the fact that at that moment if she had asked me to stab myself there was a high chance I may have. 

"Stay here." She then rolled over a little and pulled my hand towards her. My legs were already jelly so when she pulled me down I fell. 

I fell not just down but perhaps in a way I never thought I would. A way that I hadn't even thought was possible. 

I never knew falling could be like this. 

Her warm body pressed against mine, she buried her face in my chest and after 5 minuets her breathing became even.

A strand of her hair was covering her face and when I went to move it, all I could think about was that she was possibly the most beautiful person I'd ever encountered. 

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