Freezing - Unfreezing

34 | The right way

-When Steve came??

-I don't know, you tell me. What is going on and where are you!

-I went for a walk dad!

-Steve is at school and he waits for you. We will have a chat when I come home..
I know whats after.

-Unbelievable!!
I complained to mr Jasper.

-I will have to go..

-Wait for me. I will walk with you till school.

-I don't think that's a good idea..

-Are you sure you gonna be okay? you have my phone number.. if you want anything, you know what to do.

-Yeah.. thank you.. byee
I said and I left him.

-What are you doing here???
I asked Steve when I went back to school.

-What are- You doing out???

-Don't be like my dad!

-Okay... you are right. Can we talk?

-What will you say to me this time?? Should stop trying get Alisons attention?? Or should I go find Lucas????

-I came to apologise..
He said looking me in my eyes.

-Can you forgive me, Hayley?
He started coming closer to me.

-Please..?

-Okay! I will.. But don't do this to me again!
I said trying to wipe my tears with my hand.

-I won't.. come here..
Steve opened his arms to hug me. My head was on his head.. God, I missed that.
Listening to his heart was my favourite thing.

-May I have a kiss?
He asked gently with a smile on his face and I touched his lips with mine.
I couldn't smell whiskey this time.. this is a good thing, isn't it?

-Where is Alison?
I asked him.

-I left her to her auntie for this weekend.. I was hopping if you could let me spend this weekend with you..

-My dad will be home on Tuesday..

-I know. I talked to him.

-You did? I love it that he likes you now... but stop telling him everything? Okay??

-As you wish princess.
I missed that too!!

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Steve and I were laying on the bed, watching Top Gun; again.

-Someone has a crush on Tom..
Steve comments with a suspicious smile on his face. I turned to look at him and I blushed.

-Me??? Nooo!!

-Come on.. don't hide from me

-Maybee a littlee!
I showed him a small amount with my thumb.

-A little..?
He came closer to me and he was looking down my lips.

-Just a little.. but I may be in love with another guy...

-Hmm. Really..? Do I know this guy??
He whispered getting closer and closer.

-Barely..

-And.. how much do you love that guy..?

-With all my heart..

-Hm.. show me
From the moment he said that, I put my hand to his jawline and touch my lips to his.
Silky and soft.. as always. I tried to reach him better, so I went on top of him; and that surprised him. I sat on his lap and layed my head down to kiss him again. He puts his hands around my waist to get me closer.
I was having my hand to his chest sliding it down.. before his shirt ends up.
He grabs my waist stronger and from one moment to another, he switched our places so he went on top of me. He grabbed my wrist and pushed it against the bed, next to my face.

-What are you doing, Hayley..?
He asked me confused but I can see that he wants it. To be honest, he must want it for long time. All this time, from the moment we know each other, he never pushed me to make that step..
He is on top of me, I watch his confused look and my heart is beating faster and faster. Am scared of what's next..

-Steve..

-I know.
I was gonna say that this will be my first time, but he knows that. We have never talked about it.

-Are you sure you want that..?
He asked me but I could say yes or no.

-Yes..
I finally said but I didn't look convinced.

-Hm. We will do it with the right way..Okay?
He said and left from top of me and laid next to me. He started to kissing me. That kiss, was different. All his kisses are sweet, but this.. was something else. It was like a promise. A promise that he will never let something hurt me; again. That he won't even let himself hurt me.
I don't know how long we were been kissing, but I couldn't feel my lips.
He stops kissing me, and sits on the bed next to me. Slowly, he starts to unbuttoning his shirt. God, he is really handsome. I noticed that before, but now..? I can't believe that Steve is mine. Something that I didn't realise.. when is he going to gym?? Why I didn't know that? I could feel his muscles when I was hugging him all this time, but seeing his abs now it's another kind of beauty. He was finally shirtless and came on top of me again. I feel his fingers on my belly trying to take my t-shirt off. He checked on me waiting a kind of permission.
I moved up my hands to help him undress me. Not that he needs my help, but he was waiting for me to show him some how that I was okay with that. And the truth is, am more than okay.
He kisses me again. God, he is really sweet.
I feel his thumb on my cheek and a kiss out of no where, on my neck. His kisses were sliding down to my chest, near my bra. He gave me a sweet look.

-How are you feeling..?
Damnn I love it that he checks up on me.

-I love it..

-Hm?
He smirked and continued touching his lips on my body. When I felt his lips on my belly, my heart started beating faster and faster. My belly started shaking each time his tongue was making circles on my belly..
He suddenly stops and comes back to reach me. I feel his lips on mine again. Why did he came up here again?

-You know that you have to wait for me until I come back from the pharmacy..

-I know..
I said and he gave me a sweet kiss and then wore his shirt back on.
I was always wondering if a guy always has this little pack always with him, back in his pocket..
I really don't know how to feel about this. I would definitely terrified if he was having them with him.. that would mean what?? That it would be something that he was planning for?
For some reason am glad that he didn't have one with him. He didn't came with a plan of having sex with me. He didn't even showed me before he wanted that. Not in a way he didn't like me sexually, but in a respect way.
I ran to the bathroom, to check myself. I feel ready for this....