Freezing - Unfreezing

35 | Butterflies

What if he changes his mind? What if he doesn't like it?? He is older than me, he had many relationships before..
Steve never admitted that to me, I can see the way he treats to me. He knows exactly what to do, how to kiss, how to make me smile, even how to undress me.I see the door opening, and a cute smile showed up behind the door.

-Miss me..?
He asked coming on bed.

-What do you think..?

-Hmm.. Forget what I think. I wanna hear your thoughts out loud.
He said and laid to the bed next to me.

-Out loud..?

-Yeah.. What are you thinking right now..?

-I can't tell you what am thinking..

-Why? It would scare me.?  Do you want me to remind you how we started hanging out..? Because of our honesty, we walked to each other straightly.

-Of course I remember..
I said smiling. I still remember how bad I talked to him the second day. The first day, he got lucky. I had nothing to say to him, because of his green eyes; which by the way are staring at me right now.

-You see..? Spill it out..

-Am a bit of scared..
I admitted to him and his smile disappeared from his face.

-Scared..? Why
He asked worried.

-Hayley.. if you are not ready.I could wait before, I can wait now too.

-No, am not scared of that. Am scared of what your expectations are.. I don't want to disappoint you or something like that.
He didn't even paused to think of response. He responded immediately.

-Disappointing me? How can you say that?? You can do a lot of things Hayley, but not disappoint me.
I looked down, I couldn't face him.

-Hayley..
I turn to look at him and nod.

-Am in love with you.. and my love for you would never disappoint me.

What.
Did.
He.
Said.
Am blushing, feeling my heart reaching out of my body and forgot how my voice even sounds like.
All I was thinking, was how bad I wanted to kiss him; so did I..
We were been kissing again for a long time. While he was on top of me, I started unbuttoning his shirt, giving him a look "Now I want you more than ever" and "am ready now".
He laid his head near my neck, giving me a kiss.
From one moment to another, we were fully undressed. He came on top of me again, putting the bed sheets on and giving me a look full of love. 
If there's something on me that is still scared, it's not of him, but for my heart. After all these fights we had, I am falling in love with him again, but even harder.
Not that I ever stopped loving him, not even for a second. Does it ever happened to you? The feeling like no matter how long you are with someone, how many hours you spend with, there are times with him that it feels like you are starting again your relationship.
You are falling in love over and over again; with the same person, but different time of your life.

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-See who decided to wake up..
I hear Steve's voice from the moment I open my eyes. And that smile tho..? Damn. He is cute.
And really hot in these white sheets.