Freezing - Unfreezing

38 | Flight 601

We go to the cashier and Hayley was getting her wallet out of her bank.

-What the hell you think you are doing??
I step in front of her, getting some cash out of my pocket.

-Steve!

-Shh!
The lady at the cashier smiles at us.

-Why did you do that Steve??
She continues saying after we got out of the store.

-Did what..?
I act fool.

-You know what!! Don't do that again Steve. I have my dad's card, remember??

-Don't tell me what to do, ever again.
I smile at her.

-And what's that supposed to mean about your dad's card?? I wanted to get you something. Am not gonna ask you for it..
We get in my car and drive back home.

                                 HAYLEY

Since we hot in the car, Steve is acting a bit weird. He didn't say a word, so I didn't know if I should speak or not. He didn't even gave me a look.

-Steve..?
I said to him while we were sitting on the sofa, next to each other.
He nods.

-Are you mad with me.? About the credit card..?

-What? No, No. It's just, I wish I could give you a normal "boyfriend situation"..
I turned my head to his.

-What's that supposed to mean??

-At first, we needed to hide from your dad, from anyone.. then, trying to push you away..There are still so many times that I thought, God, my parents would love you.

Here we are. Steve never talked to me about his family. For many of you, it must be weird already that we are together without actually know each other past, or anything at all.
You don't love someone because of his past, but because of what he became and is, no matter what his past was.
I know that sometimes past helps you understand someone's behaviour or it makes you wanna try keep going with this relationship, but this doesn't work for me.
I know exactly how it feels to have a really hard and terrible past. Opening up to someone is not easy at all. Sometimes, it is better to let someone take his time to talk about his past than making him always feel the need to justify himself about his past.
I never wanted to ask him anything. Even at this moment, I really loved that he mentioned his parents out of nowhere.

-I lost them when I was 18. Do you remember flight 601?
I just put my hand on my mouth. That can't be truth.
I remember when Lucas and I were 12 and heard that flight 601 crushed. My grandma took us to a really nice restaurant when we heard about it in a TV which was in there.
Still remember the bold, red "Breaking News" with the really dramatic music played on the background where me and Lucas always laughed about. That day, we couldn't laugh. Not because we didn't want to, but because we never saw the "Breaking News" shows up live ever again and how it actually feels. People starting calling to find out more about their family or friends. We were sitting next to a window where we could see a lot of people running or trying to get in their cars. A woman to the table behind us was trying hard to find out if her husband with her daughter were alive. Later that night, even thought Lucas and I promised to ourselves that when we will be 18 we would travel the world, we both agreed to never get in a plane. I can't even imagine what Steve went through..