Freezing - Unfreezing

44 | Several Lives

"A lot of people believe we only find one true love in our lives, But what they don't realize is that you can have several lives."
                                   -Tokyo, La casa de papel.      

                                 HAYLEY
They got us out and mr Jasper drove me home.

-Thank you..
I say to him while he was standing on my door.

-Don't say that. Goodnight, Hayley.

-Goodnight..
I turned my back but I forgot that I was still wearing his jacket, so I opened the door again.

-Your jacket..
I say to him and make a step on to give it to him.

-Yeah..

-Goodnight.
Am saying again and close the door behind me. I made a shower and lied on my bed. I was holding my phone, waiting again for a text for Steve. He said he was gonna text me.. why he didn't?
Did he forgot me???
Am I too selfish to think that??
I wanna talk to him about so many things.. but I can't.
I wanna hear his voice.
Am calling him..

-What are you doing, Hayley???
I hear him but that's not the voice I wanted to hear. He sounds angry that I called him. His question is not the way that he wanna knows how am doing, but why the hell did I call him.

-Why did you call me?? We discuss about this! You just interrupt a meeting with the lawyers.

-Okay.. Am sorry.
I ended up the phone call and wipe my tears. I know it was wrong calling him, but I didn't even deserve a "How are you doing?".
Nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing.
No way am doing this alone.
I can't do that.
I just,
can't..

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-Where's my little girl??
I hear my dad's voice downstairs.

-Heyy
I say to him.

-Hey?! Come here!
He grabs me to hug him. I missed him so much, but it hurts me that I can't talk to him..
My dad was talking me for hours. About his trip, his meetings and how much he liked the places he went. He was seem so happy, I can't ruin it. Am not even ready telling him about it. Am supposed to talk with Steve first, if he ever calls me back.
For some reason, am not even ready to talk with Steve.
Am angry with him.
My dad drove me to school, since it's too cold outside to walk.

-You seem happy here, Hayley.
He says to me before I leave his car. Am I really dad?? Or is it getting worse here? I can't decide or I just don't know yet. He sees the fake me at home. The girl that tries hard to look happy at home to hide all this overthinking in my head.

-You! Come here. NOW!
Pesha yells at me and grab my wrist while he were having a practical exercise in biology in groups.
We are now far away from everyone else in the class.

-What the hell you are thinking??
She whispers. I forgot to mention that we got so closed with the girls, that I talked to Emily about my pregnancy... and more specifically, that am thinking to giving an end of it. Emily of course couldn't keep that secret and talked to Pesha because she knows how Pesha can handle things like this.
Is my pregnancy now a "thing"??
A "thing" that they have to solve now?