Topic: Leadership. Or rather, my view regarding it.
Something I've learned about being a leader is that you have to be/remain confident in the absence of certainty. Often times I'm not confident whatsoever in regards to my decisions I help enlist for me and those I lead. For me at least, I'm not allowed to show disconfidence. Others are counting on me and I can't afford to lead them down a path of failure. The last thing I want to do is compromise their success because of my poorly judged actions or my lack of tactfulness. They look to me for guidance, they look to me for wisdom....all because I'm the oldest. And older means wiser, right? Haha, I wish that were the case. Often times my wisdom isn't that great, which saddens me. I worry that they'll stop seeking my advice on certain matters and follow their own, harmful ones. I just don't want them all to get hurt, and I fear that if I make one little mistake, I'll ruin them. They admire me in a way and view me as the ideal role model, which puts a lot of pressure and stress on me to fit their expectations flawlessly. I've built that reputation of being that big sister/mom friend, being known for placing it safe and instructing them on what NOT to do. So on and so forth. I've been told that I'm their role model, that I'm the one they look up to. That I need to guide them down a wiser path. But truth be told, I don't exactly know what I'm doing. Thank God I hide it well.
But at the end of the day, if feigning confidence is enough to give them genuine confidence, then so be it. I just want them to succeed, over myself.
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