I am slowly but surely losing everyone I hold dear to me. I can't say I'm surprised...this was bound to happen. It's always a gamble being in my life, especially friendship wise and lover wise. But...it's whatever, I'm better off alone anyway. Sure...they gave me wills to live and continue to strive to be better. You'd think a passion of mine would help with that but the truth is I have no passion. Passion doesn't exist for me, those positive emotions I get don't really exist for me. I just...there's no point to my life. Absolutely none. Not even in the very beginning. All I do is end up hurting those around me, intentionally or not. I'm a monster.
"You have to have some will to live!"
I don't.
I really, really don't. There's no point of being here since I'm not a contributing member of society.
"What about the people who will miss you???"
Tch...they'll get over it, find my replacement, and move on with their life.
I can't really keep fighting these eternal struggles much longer. Each day they're getting worse, each day I have to force myself to eat and drink water, and each day I have to trick others into thinking nothings wrong. I also have to fake optimism, which is incredibly exhausting. And finally, I have to continue to be the perfect role model for my younger friends...which is puts a lot of stress onto me already. Since they look up to me and I can't let them down. If only they knew.
I'll end up dead alone. Mark my words...
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RandomI've seen a couple of these floating around the app and wanted to try it for myself. The Q&A portion is for y'all to get to know me better and just have fun asking me things. I thought this could be a fun little thing to do with you all, so here.
