13 : self-love isn't selfish

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Tae : atleast say good night to me after all I came with so much risk .
YN : coz you're an idiot (I murmured)

Tae : you ill mannered girl . Good night .

With that he 😉 winked at me and went

"What if someone sees 👀 him while going ", I said to myself with worries .
I stood infront of the window to check him but he's already gone .

"So fast",I exclaimed

When I looked back in my room , the condition was really bad . There were papers and books all over my desk . My bag was lying at the ground . The room was really a mess . So I searched on YouTube

"Room cleaning motivation "
(A/N : I know weird but in reality I do that so I can relate with yn 😅🤣🤣🤣)

Finally after watching 2 - 3 videos I started .
Firstly I packed my bag and books on their shelf .

Tackling with laundry, I just put my dirty clothes in a basket . Did little bit of dusting and finally exhaled in a clean room . Peace ✌️ wow feeling . But how long will it stay 🤔 😅 .

A few inches later ......
It's almost 3 am and I m just staring at my fan , not been able to sleep 🙃 . Lost in between random thoughts , realizing how messed up life is . Filled with self doubt , M I doing good ? Will I be able to get my dream job ? When will I meet my father again ? Is he fine ? .
I usually get surrounded by thoughts like this , feeling as the most useless creation of God .
Thinking all these I turned to the side facing window and out of nowhere I thought
"has that monster reached home safely ?" , but the very next moment I shrugged my thoughts.
Why M I thinking of him ?. Why should I care ?

That feeling, when you know that ,"you can't resist him " but you also know that "he's trouble "

Struggling in between my thoughts finally I slept 😴 around 5 in the morning 🌄.

Sunlight hitting sharply on my face woke me up .
Oh God I barely slept , I sighed But the moment I saw time , which was 11: 59 I screamed "Oh God I slept so much " , I got up from my bed straight to bathroom.

A few inches later ....
After doing all the chores, I sat on my chair and took my phone . There were so many missed calls from zara and Ryan .
"Oh God now what happened ", I sighed in worries
"Its okay yn , they might have just called coz you didn't go today .", with that I tried calming myself .
I thought that now classes will be going on so I didn't call them back.

Today I decided to go out all by myself and enjoy this with my very own company.

(A/N : remember self love isn't selfish but important)

I dressed up and was ready to go .

I dressed up and was ready to go

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All set to go .
Before heading out I booked a movie ticket 🎟 online .

Before movie I ate a yummy meal. After a really long I ate something good (as you know hostel food suck ) .
Enjoyed movie 🎬 .
Walked in a beautiful park with beautiful flowers their 🌼 🌸 while listening to some of my favorite songs 🎵 .
What a view .........

(A/N : Well this picture credit goes to me

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(A/N : Well this picture credit goes to me .. I you follow me on snapchat then you probably know . )

Watching sunset 🌇 is so peaceful.

I ate my dinner in a restaurant and came back to my room . Changed into comfy clothes and hopped on my bed. I lied on my bed staring at the fan like yesterday but today's feeling were different . It was peaceful day with no regrets .
I realized that giving time to yourself is so important 😌. Take care of yourself like you would care for your crush.
I slept peaceful...... good night 😴....

The next morning 🌄
I woke up with beeping sound of my alarm . Was about to go to bathroom but my phone rang .
.....Monster calling ......
My eyes wide looking at the name.
"Oh God why is he calling " , I said to myself with furrowed eyebrows .

On the call.
YN : hello ?
Monster: be ready in 10 min I m coming to pick you for college .
YN : what ? Why ?
But the call ended .

"Now what is this ?" , with that I rushed to bathroom.
A few inched later ...
I was packing my bag when my phone rang again ....

Yes of course it was him

On the call ...
Monster : come down right now
YN : but I m.not yet ready
Monster : I won't wait..
YN : then just leave .
Monster : if you don't come right now .. I m gonna shouted your name from here but I fear others might get disturbed... all coz of you .
YN : you can't do that
Monster: come fast .

Call ended ....

I packed my bag 🎒 and rushed to take room keys 🔑 .
After a min

YN .... YN ... I m waiting .. YN
A loud voice came and I know it's taehyung so I rushed to my balcony to find him shouting like an idiot.

I looked at him and gestured to keep quite . He fake smile and pointed his finger indicating me to come down .
I rushed down towards him .
"What is your problem?", I asked him in irritation.
"You ", he replied with this expressions.

"Now get on the bike " , he ordered sitting on it

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"Now get on the bike " , he ordered sitting on it .
Firstly I hesitated but then he gave me a death glare . So I sat .

Tae : you can hold me if you want
YN : no I m fine
Tae : fine for now
YN : huh what ?
Tae : nothing just be careful . (With this we left the hostel)

YN : hey where are you taking ... the college is right side and not this ? .... (I asked but he didn't reply)

YN : excuse where are you taking me? Hello are you even listening to me? .

But he just accelerated..

To be continued ............


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