Forced To Love You

Major Turn-Off

The medication Felix gave me worked a lot better than I was expecting. The prescription said to take two at a time but it felt like it was too much and I was sleeping more than I should have been. But if it kept me from having to talk to Christian then I wasn't going to complain.

I stayed in bed for the rest of the day, sleeping on and off. The medicine wore off quickly after I woke up so I continued to take it and continued to sleep. I knew it wasn't healthy but it was better than being in pain.

And it was better than dealing with Christian.

As much as I appreciated the concern, I didn't want it from him. I didn't like him lingering around and... hovering. He was constantly checking up on me and it was making me anxious, among other things.

After my third nap of the day, Christian walked into the room and flipped the lights on.

I buried my face into the pillow as I squeezed my eyes tightly shut. "Turn the lights off."

"You need to wake up. You've been sleeping all day."

"So what?"

He walked over to me and pulled the pillow out from under my head. "You need to eat something."

I looked up at him with narrow eyes. "Don't tell me what to do."

He put his hands on the bed and leaned close to me, causing me to shrink back. "Do you want to rephrase that?"

I took a breath through my nose before I responded, hoping to keep my voice as level as possible. "Get out of my face."

He leaned in even closer and I got a big whiff of his cologne. He smelled really good and I hated to even think it. Being so close to him made it hard for me to focus on anything other than how close he really was. A low growl started in his chest and I struggled to keep my fear hidden.

I knew that him being my mate or whatever meant he would never, ever hurt me. But I couldn't push away the thought that he potentially could because he was... a wolf.

"I'm not going to let you starve all because you're stubborn. If I have to force you to eat, then so be it."

I put my hand on his chest and felt my breath catch when the vibration in his chest was still there. "Christian."

He looked down at me with his bright green eyes and everything around us was a blur. I couldn't stop looking at him and I didn't know why. Sure, he was attractive but... that couldn't be the reason why. I wasn't that vain.

He leaned in closer and I knew exactly where things were headed. I turned away and, this time, put both of my hands on his chest.

"Christian, no."

He looked away from me like he couldn't bare to keep eye contact with me. I hated that I was the one making him feel this way. I... sort of knew how he felt about me and how important I was to him. He'd told me enough times about how important I was to his whole pack. So rejecting him like this probably stung more than I could have imagined.

Before I could say anything, he pulled away and moved off of the bed. He kept his eyes on anything other than me as he walked out of the room. I thought he might have gone to the living room or even the balcony but when I heard the door to the hallway shut, I knew I'd really ruined things.

Christian wasn't the type of person I ever saw myself with. He was tall and muscular and way more attractive than I was. I knew he was out of my league and I wasn't going to pretend that I even stood a chance with him.

I wasn't even sure what it was about me that he liked. He knew I didn't want to be there, he knew I was miserable, and I wasn't hiding any of it. Surely, that would have been a major turn-off for anyone else.

So why wasn't it to Christian?

I rolled onto my stomach and buried my face in my hands. I was tired of being put in such heavy situations. I just wanted to get back home so I could continue school and focus on my future.

If only Madison was working so I could talk to her. I didn't want to bother her on her day off about something so trivial. Then again, she was the one that was pushing for Christian and me to be together. She would have loved the drama, even though she would have told me I was wrong for pushing him away.

I let out a deep breath and sank into the mattress. I wanted to disappear so I didn't have to deal with any of it.