The Blossoming: XO Trilogy (BWWM) incompleted

Chapter Twenty-Seven

When I had woken up the next morning, Julian was beside me typing away at his Macbook. It didn't bother me, I knew he had work to do but after the night we had had the day before, I wanted intimacy. We hadn't had sex after our argument. We kissed, cuddled and spoke for a while and I was happy that we did but I guess in that morning afterwards, I just wanted more reassurance which was weird considering how I was so ready to leave the day before. So, I rolled over and wrapped my arms around him.

"Morning," I said rather sleepingly, trying to get a glimpse at the e-mail he was typing.

"Did I wake you?" He asked, not taking his eyes off the screen.

"No, what time is it?"

"Seven."

"Can you spare a minute to cuddle me back? Pleasseeeeeeeee."

He smiled lightly then looked down at me. "The Manchester restaurant is opening in two weeks, I don't have time to spare anymore."

"How about thirty seconds?"

"I'm awaiting delivery for shit that should have arrived a month ago," he replied reverting his eyes back to the screen. "I'm sorry if I don't sort this I won't be a very nice person to be around."

"That's okay," I replied letting go of him. Admittedly, the rejection did leave a bit of sting but it was fine. He was working. "Have you eaten?"

He didn't reply, instead he continued furiously tapping away at his already very long email. 

"I'll make you some breakfast."

"Huh?" He asked frowning at his computer

"Food babe, you need to eat." 

"No, just coffee...please."

"Flat white?"

"No just a black one, double espresso."

"You're so focused." 

I got out of bed and made him his coffee. It was more just pushing buttons on his ridiculously expensive coffee machine but still. When I gave him the coffee, he hardly noticed and an hour later, once the coffee had become too cold to drink, it was still sitting on the bedside table untouched. I decided that it was best for me to just leave. Yes, I still wanted the intimacy but he wasn't at a place where he could give it to me and rather than consistently engaging in attention seeking behaviour, it was best for me to just go home. So, I went into the shower to freshen up and whilst he was still laser focused on his screen, I packed up my things. I didn't say anything because I already felt as though I was disturbing him.

"Are you okay? Why are you packing up?" He asked with a concerned look on his face.

"Yeah I'm fine, I don't want to get in your way. I think I'm probably going to go to the gym or something."

"You're not in my way," he replied shaking his head. "I like having you here, just your presence is enough."

"I know but...I'm bored and right now, I feel like I want attention and you're busy."

Julian bit his lip in thought but was interrupted when another message came through on his laptop stealing his attention for a painfully long five second period.

"I'll be back babe," I said softly. "I'm not upset and I'm not angry but I know what I'm like. I like quality time together and I'd rather wait for that and not disturb you."

He smiled at me. "You know how you're always like to me Julian you're so mature right?" You do realise that you're just as good? Maybe even better?"

"Years of practise." I laughed.