How Could Cupid be so Cruel - Elmax

9. Can't Help Falling In Love With You

T/w slight mentions of self harm and mileven

I'm sitting on my porch waiting for Dustin and his mother to show up they were dropping me to the quarry to meet with the rest of the party. Lucas had suggested we should go there to celebrate the Easter break and it wasn't like we had anything better to do so we all agreed. I hear a car pull up a bit down the road I look over and see a curly haired boy waving to me so I got up a headed to the car when I got in I thanked Dustin's mom for driving me she was a single mother who would do anything for her son and was an incredibly nice person. Dustin an I talked the whole way there about a new movie called top gun coming out this summer we were both very excited for it as we thought the jets looked so cool and we had read in a magazine that they were all real, no effects at all.

Once we arrived I thanked Ms. Henderson again hopped from the car and started towards the rest of the party who had already arrived. As I walked I felt a slight pain in my thigh I hadn't cut it since the first time it was a stupid thing to do and I felt disgusted with myself for it, I had just felt so wrong and guilty in the moment but I had talked to Robin after and she helped me think clearly I have still thought about cutting again but I have held myself back.

"Hey guys did you bring your swimsuits?" Mike questioned me and Dustin as we reached the party.

"Can't you tell, I am literally wearing them as shorts!" Dustin told Mike smugly.

"How about you Max?" Lucas asked with a little to much excitement in his voice. Oh that's why he was looking forward to today so much, since the first time when we made out in the school hall there have been four other sessions and after each one I hated myself so much, I don't know how I'm supposed to act like everything is fine and that a man is what I want in life but I have to otherwise I could be risking my life just by existing.

"Umm no I forgot mine." I replied. I hadn't really forgotten it but I didn't want them to see the cut. There was a scar was visible and I was hoping it would fade overtime, I think it has a little but it will take longer to fully fade.

Lucas looked disappointed at my answer no doubt wanting to see me in a bikini. I looked over at Mike who was holding El under his arm probably waiting for the same thing Lucas was. I looked at El and could've sworn she looked uncomftable under his arm but no that's just my brain tricking me, wanting her to be uncomfortable under his arm. I pushed the thought out of my mind.

"Well then what are we waiting for." Dustin says while taking his jacket and shirt off. Lucas and Mike follow suit with Mike also taking his pants off too reveal a quite embarrassing speedo. Will looked a little uncomfortable with the situation but he also took off his shirt and dropped it and his watch into a bag he brought.

"You guys go ahead I want to wait for the water to warm up a bit." El says in a small voice sounding worried.

"Alright then see you two in a bit!" Mike says, he gives El a kiss on the cheek before jumping off the cliff into the water below Dustin followed him, Lucas gave me a kiss on the cheek same as Mike with El before jumping off. Will looked very hesitant but when he looked down and saw the others still alive he also went off the cliff with a long scream following him down. Now it was just me and El left in the cliff we had grown very close over the last two weeks which made me indescribably happy but also incredibly sad knowing that she would never feel the same way for me.

"Max I don't want to." El said sounding almost scared now.

"What do you mean? You don't want to jump?"

"No I don't mind jumping but I don't want them to see me in a swimsuit."

"El that is totally fine don't do anything you're not comfortable with. I don't have mine with me so if you want you can just stay and talk with me while they swim?" I was shocked to hear her tell me this she always seemed so confident in herself, but know that I think of it she always wears quite baggy jumpers and when she wears t-shirts they are always baggy long-sleeved ones.

"Okay.. thank you." she seemed so relieved like the weight of the world had been lifted from her shoulders.

"Just remember El you are beautiful and if anyone tells you that you're not then they are an asshole and wrong!" I told her as though it was an order, I could see her blush a little at the compliment which I thought was insanely cute.

"Could you play me a song?" the brunette asks while pointing to the guitar strapped across my back I had brought it thinking I would be sitting alone and could practise for the time I was here. There was no way in hell I could say no to her so I smiled at her and pulled the guitar of my back I sat down on a nearby rock while El sat next to me she was very close seeing as it was a small rock and feeling her against me filled me with butterflies. I thought for a moment deciding what to play until I starting to play 'take on me' by a-ha it was a slower finger picked version that had taken me forever to learn seeing as it had a incredibly annoying bar chord in it, but I had perfected it recently and I had heard El listening to it on her record player recently so I thought it could cheer her up a bit. I have never thought I'm any good at singing so I song quietly and softly mainly focusing on the fret board and the indescribably beautiful girl sitting next to me. El started swaying to the music until she rested her head on my shoulder and joined in singing with me I was probably as red as my hair from this so I was glad she couldn't see my face.

Once the song ended she stayed resting on my shoulder for a bit. I looked down to the pretty brunette on my shoulder.

"Do you have any requests?" I asked her trying to keep her next to me for as long as possible.

"Do you know 'Can't help falling in love'?" El asked hopefully. I didn't know it fully but I had to try for her so I hummed the tune for a bit and then started plucking at the strings, we both started to sing again and all I could think of as I sang were how tries the lyrics rang out for.

Authors notes

I hope you enjoyed a bit more of a positive chapter after the last one
Sorry I haven't been posting often I just got really busy but I'll try to update atleast 3 times a week that number could go down to two though. Best wishes

-Elmaxfantasy