Trigger warning self harm
"So are you gonna explain why El is crying in my storage room?" Robin asks as I've left the room.
"Long story short she dumped Mike and he didn't take it well know the whole town thinks she's a slut who's slept with the whole school." I say bluntly.
"I swear to god I'm going to kill that little punk."
"Yeah, well your gonna have have to get in line."
"Oh that's my cue I've gotta go now and get to my date." Robin says excitedly as Steve walks through the door to take over for her.
"A date! Who did you talk into that and how?" I ask intrigued as to whether I know her or not.
"Her name's Ellie that's all you'll get from me cause I really do need to go." Robin says while running out the door giving Steve a slap on the ass as she passes him earning a yelp from him and a menacing laugh from Robin.
"Hey Max what's up, getting a film for the night or just trying to steal my best friend?" Steve asks in a sarcastic tone.
"Waiting for a while El's in the backroom, I'm sure you've heard." I respond. His expression changes from humour to sympathy instantly.
"Yeah I heard, it's kinda hard not to. I'll just be out here go be with El stay as long as you need I'll be here till we close if you need me." Steve says proving himself once again to be one of the most caring people I know.
"Thanks Steve and could you pick out a comedy for me it might be good for El to watch something happy tonight?" I ask knowing he'll say yes.
"Yeah of course, now go to here she needs comfort."
I nod a turn back to the storage room turning the nob slowly and entering, finding El in the corner knees up with her hands and head on them sobbing quietly. I sit down next to her and put my arms around her pulling her close to me wishing I could make all of this go away. No one deserves what she's going through right now.
Except Mike Wheeler.
Wow would you look at that we agree on something for once.
"Max." I hear El sniffle beside me.
"Yeah what's up hon-" I mentally slap myself for almost calling her honey a pet name I call her in my head a lot, thank god she didn't seem to notice.
"Ca- can you come over tonight I really don't want to be alone tonight?"
El says sounding so broken by what happened today.
"Of course I can, I'll get a film off Steve aswell a nice funny one." I say trying to sound upbeat. It seems to work El's state has improved since I came into the room.
"And what do you say I show you some more on how to skateboard tomorrow?" I say trying to keep her mind of the bad stuff.
"Yes please." El says simply seeming to tired for anymore conversation she just pulls me even closer into her which to be honest I didn't think was possible.
It starting hitting just how close we are to each other right now, bodys pressed up against each other I never wanted this to end a thousand butterflies in my stomach and my whole body on fire, no feeling could compare to what this girl made me feel. But I was hit with hard reality when I got too deep into my fantasys the hard reality that El is straight, that we live in small town Hawkins where if anyone found out about me being what I am I would be killed in the street but before that well I won't think about that. Why does the world have to be this way, why do I have to be this way, why couldn't I just be normal. My mind started running through everything bad everything I think about on those late nights where I run and run out to my safe house in the woods trying to escape them but only to find I can't that they'll follow me forever. I've found the only way to silence them is to give into them give them what they want to hurt myself my legs are covered in cut marks from all those nights I had silenced them but they always came back craving more, I felt on some level that I deserved it at first but I've spoken to Robin about it she's the only one who knows about it, she talked some sence into me I don't feel like I deserve it anymore quite the opposite I hate myself for it it makes me feel weak that I give into the voices but sometimes they're just too strong. All these thoughts going through my head right now wanting me to cut again and oh how badly I wanted to do what they said, but I can't bit here with El at the moment she needs me the most. Instead I get up hold my hand out for El to grab and pull her up from the ground and I lead her out of the room.
Authors notes
Sorry for the depression
Happy one next i swear
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